Lost Memory Of Love

Chapter 31- Decision

Hindi ko na  namalayan na nakatulog pala ulit ako. The idea that he's laying beside me, his scent and his soft hands on my hair leads me to sleep. Nagising na lamang ulit ako ng naramdaman ko na gumalaw siya. I thought he was awake but it seems like it was a tiring day for the both of us. He was sleeping tightly so I didn't bother to wake him up.

I was about to close my eyes again when the door suddenly opened. Halos mapatalon ako sa gulat kasabay ng sigaw ni Bunny. "What the freak frogggg! Shainter!" She shouted from the top of her lungs. I want to act like sleeping but it's already too late she saw me. Nakabukas ang ilaw. My eyes suddenly diverted to Blake but hindi manlang siya nagising despite of the loud noise.

I motioned my hands into a 'shh' for Bunny. I can see that she's fuming mad because her face is already red. Umalis ako sa kama ng tahimik to drag her outside but before that Missy came rushing then shouted more loudly. "Oh my gosh Huesterya Shainter Montenegro!!!" Napa face palm na lang ako sa utak ko. Unfortunately nagising na don si Blake. Halatang halata na antok na antok pa siya but when he saw my friends at the door. His face was in shock.

"Did something happened?" Bunny calmly said pero yung mata niya anytime kayang pumatay. Nasa living room na kami ng bahay ngayon. They're thinking the wrong one. I will not do that of course! I know my limits! "Don't tell me, oh my gosh naman Hue!" Si Missy. Napa irap na lang ako sa kanilang dalawa.

"Listen first my gosh" I told them as I massaged my temple. "Me and Blake got back together" I calmly said. They we're in shock. Their lips even parted. "Wait what?!" Did I hear it right? Bunny's voice was diverted into an exciting one. As if she's waiting for it. Pinalo lang siya ni Missy kaya tinago niya ang ngiti niya sa pag inom ng tubig.

"I remembered the past, not all of it but the parts that me and Blake met until the shopping day with ninang and my family. I already remembered a bit from my past before that so I somehow stitch it with these one." I explained. Nawala ang pagka excite ni Bunny and Missy become more serious. I don't know the reason behind it. Meron pa ba akong importanteng parte ng buhay ko noon na kailangan kong alalahanin?

"Are you sure about your decision?" Tanong ni Missy habang nakaiwas ng tingin. There's no way I'll doubt my decision it's final. Sasagot na sana ako ng biglang nag salita si Blake. "Are you doubting her decision?" He seems... Angry. The atmosphere becomes heavy after that.

Missy gave him a death glare and answered him. "I am." She shortly said. "It's her choice, you don't have a thing on it." Pabalik balik ang tingin namin ni Bunny sa kanilang dalawa. Why are they acting like this? In my memories they seems to get along naman.

"I am her friend Blake, I know what's good for her and not." Missy's still calm despite of the anger in her eyes. "Ah, that's the point. Ipapamukha mo nanaman sa akin an I'm no good for Shainter right? Bakit? Natakot ka ba na--" Blake was cut off ng nagtaas ng boses si Missy.

"Wala akong dapat ikatakot! Why would I be? Hindi ba sa ating dalawa ikaw dapat ang matakot?!How dare you ask Shainter again to be your boyfriend!" Bunny instantly held Missy. Blake's eyes are now in anger. I can't cope on their conversation. It seems like ang dami ko pang hindi alam.

Napatungo na lang ako at pumatak ang mga luha sa mata ko. I can feel their stares at me. I immediately wipe my tears. Getting us back together seems to have bad effects for everyone huh? I somehow want to doubt my decision after that. Akala ko tapos na eh, but it seems like it's just the beginning.

"There's a lot of things I don't know right?" Tears keep escaping. Ngumti ako sa kanila habang umiiyak. I assumed that I look like pathetic now.  Blake immediately held my hand. I just smiled at them. Their eyes shows pity on me.