I am shocked. I am bewildered. I am in pain. That's what I am right now. Is it always like this? Having different emotions on a special day? Or it is just me having a jinx.
"Be your what?"
I'm doomed. What now?
"Naya... be your what??"
Should I say-it's April Fools Day!!-but no! The year has barely begun!
"I... uh... don't mind it. I was just too swayed by the fireworks. That's why I'm blabbering. Just... don't mind it. Umm... tara na??" Please... pretty please... alis na tayo rito. Baka kung ano na naman masabi ko eh. Pahamak talaga 'tong bibig ko. Masyadong honest. Buti na lang 'di pa ko nabubuking sa feelings ko.
"No. Clarify me. Kasasabi mo lang kanina-be my boyfriend... Now... what was that? Care to explain? Hmm?" Uh-oh! Alam naman pala niya eh. Tinatanong pa ako kung anong sinabi ko!
"How many times do I have to tell you that... don't mind it! For the second time... I blabbered. You don't understand that? In tagalog, nadala lang ako sa sitwasyon!! Pleaseee!!!?! Tara na!! Okay?!" Ano ba ginagawa ko? Masiyado naman ata akong overacting. Desperadong makaalis sa sitwasyon?
"No, you're not blabbering. Kahit nadala ka lang sa sitwasyon, hindi mo basta-basta masasabi ang isang bagay kung hindi mo naman ito iniisip. Ang daming pwedeng sabihin kapag nadadala ka, tapos—be my boyfriend?? Pwede namang—ang pogi mo Cedrick!! Pa-kiss!!—gano'n!!" Wow. I feel like I want to hit someone in the face. Do you feel that too?
"Baby Naya, I want to see you happy. I want to see your eyes sparkle. I want your smile to never fade. I want your heart to be only filled with love. And for that to happen, I want you to be with him. By doing so, I think I'll die peacefully..."
Kuya... anong gagawin ko? Itutuloy ko na ba... o ititigil ko na lang?
"Be my boyfriend. Maybe a month. Or until Kuya Kino gets treated." Did I said it right? Parang masiyado namang bold ang pagkakasabi ko.
"Wow." Just wow. I expected him that he'd react like that. Sino namang hindi magugulat sa sinabi ko?
"I know it's shocking. Listen to me Cedrick. What I said earlier was for Kuya Kino's treatment. He wanted me to get a boyfriend that will make me happy so that he'll be happy too. Kapag ginawa ko ang gusto niya, positive ako na gagaling siya. Kaya please... cooperate with me. Kung ano mang plano mong panliligaw kay Zyra... huwag mo munang ituloy. Dahil kailangan kita. Dahil kailangan ka ni Kuya. Dahil kailangan ko ang best friend ko. Dahil ikaw ang tamang desisyon ko. Please help me. Just this time. I don't want to lose my brother."
I'm such a desperate woman. Is it because of my brother? Or is it because I don't want him to be with someone else? I love him that much? Naya... Naya... Stop this shit!
"So... you need me because of your brother and I made you happy as a friend... not because it's me whom you love and made you happy more than a friend?" What a question.
"Of course!!!... Not!!!! You're just a friend!! You made me happy as a friend!!! I chose you because you're my friend!! I need you as a friend!! I love you as a friend!!! Again... you're just a friend!! Understand!?!" Wew... OA na ata 'yon... He's just a friend... in his eyes. But in my eyes... he's more than a friend. Pero dahil isa akong babaeng torpe... siyempre 'di ako aamin. Ano ako? Hilo?
"Overreacting ka naman, Naya. Nagtatanong lang 'yong tao... nagagalit ka na? Sana ok ka lang?" 'Di ako okay. Sobrang hindi. "Alam ko namang friend lang ako. Ang sakit mo magsalita grabe. Ikaw... friend lang ako sa 'yo. Pero sa 'kin... more than a friend ka na..." Whattt???
