Love Within (Complete First Book)

Chapter 18 - Emmalin

My mom and sister were coming today, I was happy but I couldn't subside the nausea I was feeling. I had to talk to my mom but I was not ready yet. I wanted to know about my father but I never thought about him in my life and now all of a sudden I got to know that he was alive which I was not even sure of. Derek was also not here to calm me down, he left for Florida a week after I moved in with him.

He convinced me to move in with him with sex, that's irritating but felt good at the same time. He moved all of my stuff to his house with the help of Riley the next day when I was in office, I didn't have a lot of stuff though but he was desperate and I felt loved and cared by my man. He was gone for 2 weeks and I miss him like crazy. There's some problem in that project so they had to extend their stay. I miss waking up next to him, I miss his touch, his smile. I just him miss a lot. It's our first time apart and that too for this long, even though we talk everyday it's not the same. I sniffed and wiped my tears.

I got ready for office when my stomach twisted. I ran into the bathroom, opened the lid and threw up. I washed my face afterwards and walked out. This happens every time when I am a nervous wreck.

"Are you ok?" Rachel asked as I came down.

She was ready to go. She is staying with me since Derek left for Florida. I didn't want to bother her, but he insisted her to stay with me until he returned. I told her to go if she wanted to spend time with Lucas, but she was adamant not to leave me alone and I was happy that she didn't leave.

I told the girls yesterday about the possibility of my father being alive, they were shocked like me that's why she is so concerned about me. I am blessed to have such friends.

"I am trying not to panic." I admitted.

"I know that you need to talk to your mother but you can do it tomorrow. Enjoy today with your family, have some fun with them. I know you miss them and they miss you too that's why they are coming here for you." I know she is right.

"Don't ruin your today with the thought of tomorrow," I blew out a heavy breath then looked at her.

"When you did you become a philosopher?" I smiled at her.

"I try," She winked as we got inside the car. "See you are smiling." She said, proud of herself.

"Let's have breakfast at Melissa's," Rachel suggested, I replied with a nod. It's nearby our office and we have time, so why not?

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We got to the office an hour ago, she went to her floor and I came to mine which felt empty.

I took the pancakes out, I brought from Melissa's and had a bite. I couldn't eat there with all the things going on in my mind. I ate one and threw the other two, I guess I was not that hungry.

I got back to my work and finished checking a set of documents. I got up to print them when the desk phone rang. I sat down to take the call.

"Good mor-"

"Where the hell is your phone?" I was so happy to listen to him.

"It's in my bag." I replied.

"I was worried sick about you when I couldn't get a hold of you," He sounded mad. I checked my phone, there was 5 missed calls and 10 texts all from him.

"I am sorry, my phone was on silent, I might have done that accidentally." I mumbled.

"I wanted to hear your voice and that's the only thing I could do right now, Emma but you-," He was yelling and I lost it there. I cried out loud, I missed him so much that I couldn't take it anymore.