Benefits With My Teacher

BWMT- 30

30

This night alone is really twisted. Before dinner I was so pissed off at Mr. West, then I kissed Luke, screamed at Mr. West, attempted to walk home and now here I am, sitting on Mr. West’s bed with him beside me, his comforters over my body. His present sat itself comfortably on my lap.

His card on my fingertips.

“Say something Kate.” He muttered when I have been silent.

Say yes you idiot.

I wanted to, but my body said otherwise, and so did my brain. I shook my head, tears on the verge of falling. I kept on shaking my head at the card, then at him.

“I can’t.” the words left my mouth in one single breath. “I can’t, I’m sorry.”

He snaked his arm around my waist and pulled me closer and I leaned my head on his shoulder. “I thought this was what you wanted?”

“Is this why you did this? Because I wanted it?”

“No, because I want this too.” He muttered and looked at me. “Why can’t you?”

“I don’t know.” I sighed and looked down at the covers. “I mean… I don’t know.”

He placed his fingers on my chin and pulled my face up to make me look at him, eye to eye. “Are you scared?”

I looked at him, confused and unsure. I wasn’t sure of anything nowadays and it’s really frustrating. I started fiddling with my thumbs, thinking. “I don’t know. Yes?”

“Of what?” he breathed, he smelled like mint, as always but with a hint of alcohol. ‘What are you afraid of?”

“What will happen to us? What if something happens? What if we get found out? How are we going to hide this? What about Gail and Dylan, they should know, right? What if we can’t control? What if we got jealous or something? What if someone uses it against me? Against you? Against us?” I started babbling, my voice going softer and quieter as I finished.

I heard him give a light chuckle. “How are we going to hide this? Kate, we’ve been hiding our extraordinary relationship from the entire school, apart from Gail and Dylan, no one from the school knows.”

I remained silent, nodding.

“And what if we got jealous or can’t control it? Please, we’ve been or let’s just say I have been controlling myself for the past few months. I don’t know about you though. I could imagine you getting pissed looking at other girls flirting with me.”

“Stop being such a narcissist.”

“Isn’t that one of the qualities you like about me?” he raised his brow.

I sighed and gave s small smile. “Yeah I guess that comes with the package.”

“Package of what?” he looked at me, feigning confusion then wagged his brows suggestively, “Mine?”

I grabbed my pillow and slammed it down onto him. “Shut up.”

I smiled and then continued digging up his present for me. I placed the card beside me and found keys. Attached to it was a small black remote kind of thing. When it hit me, my eyes lit up like the fourth of July.

“Oh my god.” Was all I was able to say for the moment and when I found my voice back, I spoke, “I can’t.”

“C’mon! Take it!” he pushed the keys back to the palm of my hand. “Don’t worry, your mom, dad and Aaron chipped in.”

“Dad?”

“Well yeah, I was talking with your mom about it and he heard us so he forced me to accept his ‘part’ of the payment.” He said, air quoting the word part.