STRAY KIDS one shots

We Are Here part 2

A little review~

Minho: I don't know, it's just that I have some kind of feelings that tell me he kept sometimes dangerous here. Should we check it out hyung?
Chan:*sigh* I'm worried about him. If you really want to check his room don't do it tonight. He gonna come home soon. Me, you, and Jisung don't have class tomorrow. Let's check it tomorrow.
Minho: You are right. Let's go down for dinner.
Chan: Not waiting for Felix?
Minho: We will wait, we will eat when he came home.
Chan:*smile* Okay, I'll change my shirt first.

Continue~

Author p.o.v

Felix come home soon after hanging up from Minho's phone call. Greet the others who are circling the table before going to his room to change to more comfy clothes, meeting Chan in the process. Just the same as usual, he greeted, he fake a smile, fake a news, and depart. After a good time of taking a deep breath, taking a good hold of his breathing, changing his clothes, chucking some pills that he kept hidden from others, he step out of the room to the dining room.

Jeongin: Hello hyung!
Felix: Hey guys.
Jisung:*hug Felix* Man, where have you been?!

Felix tensed from the sudden skin contact making Jisung back away in the second he saw it, confusion is written, yet he doesn't ask anything about the things that he just witness.

Minho: Thank you for coming home earlier.
Felix: It's not a problem hyung. Its not that I have a plan tonight.
Jeongin: Let's eat now!
Hyunjin: Sure, *hand Felix's a piece of chicken* You seems hungry, here have the most delicious one.
Jisung:*protest* You never did that to me!
Hyunjin:*smirk* Do I need to?

Dinner go on smoothly like how it usual is. They are talking about their day without noticing that Felix is trying hard to fake a smile from just now but is too tired to do so again. He stare at the piece of chicken that Hyunjin gave him, still untouched, while the others have gulp down their own pieces. Minho look at Felix wanting to ask his day and to make him join the conversation when he accidentally saw the face of Felix that doesn't fake a smile and just look on his food not having any plan to touched it soon. Minho just look at Felix, catching all the details that he is doing. Jisung and Hyunjin who is playing accidentally drop Jisung's glass who luckily was not made from glass to the floor creating a loud and ear piercing noise. Minho was startled but was more startled looking at Felix's reaction. Felix's face turn pale white and his breathing is not stable. Cold sweat is streaming down and eyes starting to shake as if he gonna cry any time soon.

Felix:*heavy breathing* No, no, no! Go, go away!

The whole room turn silence by that, Minho gets up trying to get close to Felix intending to calm him down but he got push away by Felix who start to crouching down coveting his ears with his arms in horror.

Felix:*heavy breathing**panic* No, no! Go away! Go away!

Minho stand there in confusion just as how the others members are 'till Felix run from his place to his room legs still trembling, lips quivering, tears threating to falls, keep whispering the word of threat, stumbling over his feet. Out of worry, Jeongin run closely to Felix before Felix first instinct when he saw Jeongin running towards him was to push him away. He pushed Jeongin hard before running to his room again. Jeongin who was pushed quite hard was catched by Chan who stand behind him. Jeongin doesn't care of the pain and shock that he received, he felt more worried about Felix. Why? Why is he that panic?

Felix rumble across his drawer, throwing all of the things that was in his grip but not the things that he is finding, shocking all of the members who standing outside his room watching how he furiously throw things out. When he finally got a hold of the small tube of medicine that he is finding, he quickly chuck down some tablets and take the thing which help him to breath better. When he got calmer, Minho is the first one to step inside the now messy room. Carefully taking each step toward his friend who is now sitting looking pale and lifeless.

Minho:*careful* Felix?

The mention boy didn't response anything and just scan the whole room and his friends expression which he expected earlier when he is in the right state of mind already. Instead of responding to the call, he break down to tears. Minho was startled to see Felix cry. He doesn't know what to do except to kneel beside him and pull him to a hug, which he did. The members slowly come inside still with confusion of why Felix cried.

Felix:*sobbing* Sorry! Sorry! Sorry!

He repeat the same word as he cry on Minho's chest. He cry and cry harder. When he finally calm down a little, he look at his desk and point his quivering finger to his diary book. Jisung take the pointed book and show it to Felix.

Jisung: This book?
Felix:*quivering* Re-read it. You will know why *hesitating* why I am acting like this.
Minho:*worried* Are yous sure? We won't force you to tell us anything.
Felix: Ju-just read it.

They opened the book and read the word which Felix have chosen carefully before writing it inside his diary. They finally know why Felix seems so distant this month. Jisung finally know why he was so tensed when he hugged him back then. Minho finally know why Felix doesn't touch his food just now. Chan finally know why Felix didn't greet him back in university. Hyunjin finally know why he rarely see Felix's in dance class they both shared together. Changbin finally know why Felix always avoid him. Jeongin finally know why Felix pushed him just now. Seungmin finally know why Felix never show up in vocal and rapped class they both enter. The questions that they kept themselves finally answered just by reading the book that Felix let them to red. Minho is the first one who reach out his hand and pull the boy who has his head down afraid of his friends reaction after reading his secret.

Minho:*hug Felix* It's okay. It's okay. We are here. You are not alone. Feel free to cry or shout. No one will blame you for it. It's not your fault. It's no one fault. It's just how the fate is. It's not yours nor others fault.

Just with that Felix break down again. But now, in relief that his friends now know everything and they even told him that he is not in fault.

Jeongin: It's not your fault hyung. We won't blame you for everything that have happened. It's not your fault.
Felix:*sobbing* I do-don't know! I don't know!
Chan: I know it's hard, take a deep breath. Listen to our voice, come to us. Come to us. Listen to us only. Listen and take a deep breath. You can do it. You are doing great. You always do everything great.
Seungmin: We are here for you. We all are. You can come to us no matter where or when. You are welcome. We are your friends.
Hyunjin: You are doing great. You are doing great. Thank you for everything you have done. Thank you.

Felix did the thing that Chan instructed him to do, calming down a little by little. Focusing all of his hearing to his friends, he trust them, he trust them with all of his heart. He know that he is not in fault now. He know it now. He is sure of it now. He is sure that his friends will be there by his side to go through this. He know and believe it. He believe in them. He know he will passed this state if he have his friends by his side.