STRAY KIDS one shots

Hurt part 2

A little review~

Yes, it's been four days since I passed out in the park and I'm feeling a lot better but my brother insists on having me stay on bed for at least a week. We are now seated on my room. Me on my bed and my brother on my side. Interrogating me like how a protective older brother would be. I take deep breaths before telling him everything. Starting from my crazy happy dilutions 'till the part where I end up passed up in the park.

Continue~

Y/n p.o.v

Chan: So, everything is because that Seungmin kid have a date now?
Y/n: Yes. It's just *pause* I like him for so long. I've been giving him hint *shaky voice* b-but he suddenly come to me a-and tell me that he ha-have a date now!
Chan: Do you ever tell him your feelings?
Y/n: No forward. I always give hint though.
Chan: Okay, next question, do you want him to be happy?
Y/n: What kind of question is that?! Of course yes!
Chan: Then can you let him go?

I was stunned. That question never cross my mind. I want him to be happy but I with me. I don't want him to be with anybody, I want him with me. I'm selfish. I know that. I always think that he is the one for me and I'm the one for him. Yet, everything change that time. Maybe, I was way too selfish. I need to let him go sooner or later. I want him to be happy. My heart ache. My heart ache not wanting to accept the fact that I need to let him go for him to be happy.

Y/n:*whisper* Please let me have sometime alone, oppa.
Chan:*sigh* Take your time. Remember I'll always be here through your up and down.
Y/n:*nod* I know.

Chan p.o.v

I left y/n's room and went to the kitchen wanting to check on her medicine stock. When I check on it, a piece of paper fall. I took it and red it.

Feeling crazy now? You stole mine once, now I'm gonna stole yours. Just for you to know, I never like your friend but who knows that he is so stupid that he doesn't even know that I hate him. Enjoy the rest of your day.

-Clara-

Clara? The paper is wet and the words are blurry. Maybe it was wet from the rain. I check if there are y/n's things, and there is. There is her wet phone case that I'm gonna throw away after informing her. Did she slip it in y/n's phone case when she faint? Whoever and however she did slip it in, she is good. Did y/n about this? Should I try to call Seungmin? I know him a little bit cause y/n can't stop talking about him. I urged y/n to give me his number so that if one day something happens to y/n, I know who to call. But would it be okay if I call him now? What should I say if he pick up? Let's just call him for now.

Phone~

Chan: Is this Seungmin?
Seungmin: Yes, I am. Is this Chan hyung? Y/n's brother?
Chan: Yeah, I heard that you have got yourself a date? Congratulations.
Seungmin: Thank you. *chuckle* I don't know that y/n even told hyung that.
Chan:*chuckle* She can't stop  talking about it. She is so excited that I don't think she can be quite.
Seungmin:*laugh* I need to take her out to eat then.
Chan: Hey, if it's okay, can you tell me your date's name?
Seungmin: Oh, it's okay hyung, it's Clara. She is currently the student of AS University.
Chan: Oh? AS university?
Seungmin: Yes, why?
Chan: One of my friend study there.
Seungmin: Good to know that. Hyung, I'm sorry. I need to do something now.
Chan: Oh, it's okay. Thank you for your time.
Seungmin: It's not a problem hyung.

I hang up the call. Several thoughts come to me. So, Clara is Seungmin's date and she is intending to use Seungmin for revenge. But what did y/n's do 'till Clara want to take a revenge on her? Should I ask her? Better be. I don't want y/n to cry anymore. I walk to y/n's room and get inside. There she is. Sitting on her bed, with swollen eyes.

Chan:*softly* Y/n? You okay?

Y/n doesn't answer. She looks far ahead, her gaze is blank. I sighed and slowly sit down beside her. I slowly put her head in my chest hugging her close. My hands wrap around her tightly making sure that she is safe here.

Chan:*softly* Cry if you wanna cry. I will be here. Shout, scream, hit, I will be here for you.

Just like how a switch button is being switch, she cry on my chest. She cry hard. Her tears can't seems to stop flowing. I pat her back saying nothing. Not even a soothe word came out of my mouth. I don't want to calm her down, at least not now. She needs to cry her heart out. She needs to cry 'till she is satisfied. I stay seated waiting for her to calm herself down by her own. My hands still hold her tight, patting her head and back, making sure that I'm here, and will always be here.

Y/n:*sniffle* Th-thank you op-oppa.
Chan:*smile* It's okay. Do you feel better now.
Y/n:*sniffle**smile* A lot.
Chan:*softly* Y/n, I don't want to ask you this, but I need to make sure that you are gonna be okay. So, *looks at her eyes* can you promise me to tell me everything you know?
Y/n:*sniffle* I'll t-try.
Chan:*smile* Okay. Do you know who Clara is?

She looks startled. I give her a warm smile before whispering that it's okay to tell me everything. She take a deep breath before telling me everything she knows.

Y/n: Clara was a girl in my class. She used to like a boy named Lee Minho, but he likes me instead. I know that Minho have crush on me but I don't. So, I ignore him. One day, I heard that Clara confess to Minho and got rejected saying that he likes me not Clara.
Chan: And then? Did you fight?
Y/n:*nod* Since that day, Clara doesn't talk to me and send glares to me. I try to talk to Minho that I don't have any crush on him so that he can open his heart to Clara. However, a month after, we were told that Minho left the school due to an unspoken reason.
Chan: And, since then, you and Clara are never a friend again?
Y/n:*nod* Yes. Where do you know her oppa?

My mind is debating. Should I let her read the letter that I found? Or should I just keep it a secret?

Chan:*smile* For now, I won't tell you where. *push y/n softly to bed* I'll tell you once you are better.
Y/n:*pout**whine* But why?
Chan:*chuckle* Cause you need lots of rest now. So, take a rest sissy.
Y/n:*pout* You need to promise.
Chan:*chuckle* Yes yes. I promise sissy.

Author p.o.v

Months passed. Chan told y/n from where he knows Clara, let her read the letter that he found, and keeping her up in the most down situation she have. He is there for her. Chan is a brother who everyone wish for.

Did y/n's feeling for Seungmin die? No. It's doesn't die yet it doesn't bloom. She try to let him go. Did she tell him about what she found out about Clara? No. She is waiting for the right time to do so. Seungmin looks very happy since the day after his first date with Clara. Seungmin can't stop rambling about how the date goes, who beautiful she is, who cute she is, he ramble everything to y/n. Not realising that the girl that he is rambling his story for, keep a fake smile on her face trying hard not to break down there and then.

Seungmin:*excited* It's the best date ever!
Y/n:*fake a smile* I can imagine it. I'm sure it's very best.
Seungmin:*excited* Of course! It's ju-

His ramble is cut by his phone rings. His face lit up the second he saw the caller. Y/n is pretty sure it's Clara judging by how he react. He quickly bid y/n goodbye and dashing off to who know where leaving y/n there who keep her head low letting her tear that she have been keeping it a secret fall slowly. Just as if it was planned before, Chan come by her back and hug her slowly. He let him y/n cry at his shoulder before taking her home making sure she is safe. He want to tell Seungmin that his sister love him lots but he doesn't want to ruin her friendship with him. Everything can back fired to him even if there is just a single step wrong. He can't risk that. His only hope is that either y/n's feeling for him died or Seungmin finally realized that y/n is the one for him and not Clara.