STRAY KIDS one shots

Without You

Without You by Seventeen

Seungmin p.o.v

It was hard without you, I was scared
I was scared of being alone
So I spent my time foolishly
Didn’t even know how time was passing

Here I am. Stuck in the same place. Not knowing where to go. They said that everyone have a place out there. But where is mine? I can't found mine. Or did I lost mine? Did I?

I didn’t know anything
Even if it’s hard
You don’t have to be alone
Come back, I’m ready to listen
Wherever you are, if you can hear me
Please come back to me

You are my place to come back. You promised me that you will be there. Where are you now? You will come back, right? I'll listen. I'll be a good boyfriend. I'll listen to you. Come back, please.

You didn’t even say those typical words
I’ll be back as if it’s a given
You didn’t even say goodbye

You left me alone here. Why? Why?! Why don't you tell me what's wrong?! Maybe, maybe, we can fix it. We can! Just tell me what did I do wrong! Tell me! Text me! Call me!

I was following you till I ran out of breath
But you’re not here

Where? Where?! Where are you?! I come to every place we used to hang. Park, cafe, movie theatre, your office, I can't find you anywhere. Where?! Where are you? Please, tell me, I need you. Where?

I press down my hat
Bumping and hurting
But you don’t even care
You’re so pretty and so bad
I’m falling, I’m breaking down
But I’m not important to you anymore

I saw you. You are there. Laughing with the boy who you claimed as your friend. He is just your friend, right?! You look back and saw me. You saw how broken I am. But, but, how can you leave me?! How can you leave me? I am broken.

You’re not here so from now on
I’m gonna change
I’m gonna change
I’m gonna change
I’m gonna change
I’m gonna change

I look up to the sky. Is this a dream? If this is a dream then if I changed my way to her, I can be with her, right? Right?! I take a blade and slide it across my used to be milky skin. Hissing in the pain, tears flowing out with the red liquids on my hand. I look around. Why? Why nothing change? This is just a dream, everything will change if I wake up! Why doesn't it change back?!

I might go crazy like this
Maybe that might be better
I try to tell myself but the conclusion is the same
No, I’m not doing this

This is a dream. This isn't a dream. This is a dream. This isn't a dream. This is a dream. This isn't a dream. I keep chanting that inside my mind. Which one is right? Is this a useless dream or a cruel reality? Which one should I believe?!

Now I know you’re not there
It hurts so much to know that
It’s hard even to say I’m ok

I slide the blade across my skin again. The same clear substances and red liquids flow out. The same pain. The same wish. The same thing happened. I drop down to my knee. Finally realising, she left me. She left me. Alone. Here.

I don’t want to
Just thinking of you
Hurts so much

I tour my house which used to be our happy house. Eyes contain nothing but darkness. Am I that bad? That you need to left me alone here? Maybe I am. I walk across our used to be beautiful pictures. Even just by walking through, the memories hunt me down. Every single second we spent, come to me as if it try to bring me down.

I press down my hat
Bumping and hurting
But you don’t even care
You’re so pretty and so bad
I’m falling, I’m breaking down
But I’m not important to you anymore

I hate it. I don't want to remember the memories. It was beautiful before. I grab every single picture frame and smash it with the hammer. Taking the picture not caring if my hands is stuck with the now broken glass. I took it and burnt it down right infront of my eyes. Everything is done now. Everything. Nothing will be left. Everything is done now.

You’re not here so from now on
I’m gonna change
I’m gonna change
I’m gonna change
I’m gonna change
I’m gonna change

I'm not gonna be the one who chased after you. I'm not gonna think about you. I have get rid of everything about you. I will take a step out of this dark and cruel days. I will. I won't be looking back now. I won't. I won't even look at you even if you are there infront of me. I won't.