STRAY KIDS one shots

Hurt part 1

Y/n p.o.v

Happiness is there with me every step I take to him make my happiness grow and grow. I skip happily by the road humming my favourite song. I am happy. I am so happy that I can't fall asleep yesterday. I keep turning, tossing around, kicking nothing but air, jumping on the bed out of our happiness.

Y/n: I wonder what will he tell me? Will he confess? Will he ask me out on date?

I giggle happily not minding if I get some weird stared from others. I know that I am too confident of getting asked out of date but as creepy as this sound, I have been stalking on his social media trying to find his type and in my opinion it suit me the best! I can't find any close girl that fits his criteria except me which make me a lot more happier. I finally come to the said place and saw him sitting alone by the window like how an angel should be. He is really handsome, cute, sweet, just everything! He notices me and wave to me with that iconic smile of his. If only today I'm in my house, I'll be jumping around in happiness because he wave at me.

Y/n:*excited* Hey, sorry for the wait.
Seungmin:*smile* No problem, I'm just arrived 5 minutes ago.
Y/n: How are you this day?
Seungmin:*shrugged* Just as usual except *smile* I met someone who will change my life.

Met someone? Changed his life? Maybe just his sister or brother. But why did he looks so happy? Maybe he is just trying to distract me. He gonna confess to me. I just need to be patient.

Y/n:*wiggle eyebrow* Who is the lucky one?
Seungmin:*smile* She is so beautiful! Like very! A goddess!
Y/n:*smirk* I wonder who she is? Do I know her?
Seungmin: Maybe you do. But even if you don't, you will meet her soon!
Y/n: I wonder who she is. Any pictures?
Seungmin:*excited* Yes! I asked her to take a selfie with me and she agreed! Oh, wait, I need to tell you this!
Y/n:*smirk* What?
Seungmin:*excited* I asked her out on a date and she said yes! I can't wait for Sunday!

My whole feelings disappeared. He asked her out? And she accepted it? I don't know what to say. Seungmin show me the pictures, the said girls have her hands on top of his soft one. He smiles happily. He looks so happy. An emotions that I never saw in him. I don't know what to say nor feel. He excitedly say about his plan date and his new girl. I can only nod and fake a smile for his response. I can't feel anything. I don't know. I feel empty. My crush just confess that he has a crush. A beautiful one. The girl he shows me is pretty and warm, she is the definition of a princess. I end the day with pretending that my mom needs me home now. He waves me goodbye, still have that sweet and happy smile on him. I wave back before slowly walking back to my house.

My feelings is empty, broken, hurt, and speeches. I am supposed to be happy for him but I can't. I'm not able to congratulate him. I can't. I look up and realize some raindrops are falling wetting my face little by little. I sigh. This day is really something. From a very happy day turn to this. Everyone beside me scurried to find a place to avoid the rain or open their umbrella. Everyone except me. I don't know if I'm lucky or not, but I should thanks the rain that lets my tears run down on my face without letting anyone see it.

I walk by myself letting the rain pour down wetting my whole body. I walk to the park where I used to play swings with Seungmin that time. I take a seat on one of the swings. I can't difference between my tears and the rain drop. I can't seem to care enough if I got sick tomorrow. I just need to let this feelings out without getting judge by everyone. I feel foolish to be that happy, go expect something so big will happen to me. I feel stupid. I slowly swing back and forth. I turn my head to the empty swing beside me remembering all the conversation I used to have between me and him that I used to hint him about my feelings for him.

Conversation 1~

Y/n: If I have a boyfriend, I'll make sure to give him a kiss everytime we met.
Seungmin:*smirk* Will he like it?
Y/n: Of course he will. I will also hug him tightly and make sure he know that I love him.
Seungmin:*smirk* I hope that your boyfriend won't run away from you.
Y/n:*protest* Hey! Here let me show you how.

Y/n walks behind Seungmin who was seated on the swings and hug him tight. Resting her head on his shoulder. Feeling the warm that radiate from his body.

Conversation 2~

Y/n: Man, that couple is so cute!
Seungmin:*raise any eyebrow* Why are you so crazy about getting relationship?
Y/n:*roll an eyes* Of course, I want to have a boyfriend. So that I can go on a cute classy date with him.
Seungmin:*roll eyes* I'm pretty sure that when you got into a relationship you won't hang with me again.
Y/n:*protest* I will always hang with you. You are the best after all.
Seungmin:*roll eyes* As if.

Conversation 3~

Seungmin: Why don't you get crazy about Yena's relationship?
Y/n: I don't know, they don't seems to be click.
Seungmin: You sound like a relationship expert.
Y/n: Because I know how it feels to be click on each other.
Seungmin:*smirk* I wonder who will be the unlucky guy.
Y/n:*smirk* Lucky guy, you mean?

Present~

I smiled sadly by myself remembering those conversations. I cry harder. The speechless feeling that I felt just now is being ripped open. I cry. I cry the hardest I can. If today is my day, I will be thankful that this park is empty today. The scream in my head slowly fade away as how my energy starting to drain from my body. I try to stand up but fail. My legs is giving up. I finished all my energy in crying my heart out. I shakily take my phone out calling my brother.

Phone~

Chan: Hello?
Y/n:*unstable voice* Op-oppa, fe-fetch me.
Chan:*worry* Where are you? Stay on the phone y/n. Are you in the park?
Y/n:*unstable voice* Pa-park. Op-oppa, fe-fetch me. *cry* I'm hu-hurt!
Chan: I will be there soon y/n. Stay on phone with me. I'll be there in five.

I use all my strength in staying on phone with my brother. He keep asking me to say something. I let out nothing but a sob. I don't know what to say. I wanna cry even though my energy is drained from my body. I fall to the ground unable to stay put on call again. I don't know what happened next but maybe my brother come to me right on time. Cause when I open my eyes, I'm already inside my room. The room where I used to jump happily. The room where I imagined all those happy things.

The moment I open my eyes, my head hurt, my body feel weak, nothing but coldness surround me even though I'm being wrap as if I'm a burrito, all my body hurt but one thing hurt more. My heart. My feelings is, I don't know how to describe this. It's painful yet I feel happy that he found someone but it's not me. My brother come to my side with water and medicine in his hand.

Chan: Feeling better?

Can't answer, I just shake my head and try to sit. Instead of helping me sit, he push me down not letting me sit up.

Chan: After you got better, you need to tell me everything. Starting from the meeting 'till why you end up of the park passed up with red swollen eyes.

My brother know that I go out meeting him cause I excitedly ramble to him. He always accept what my decision is. He always there for me. Knowing that  I end up like that, I scared to make him disappointed but I think that is not what I suppose to think right now. I can only nod as a response and flip down the medicine he hand to me before slowly drifting back to the land where I once send into.

Chan: So, *raise an eyebrow* anything to tell me?

Yes, it's been four days since I passed out in the park and I'm feeling a lot better but my brother insists on having me stay on bed for at least a week. We are now seated on my room. Me on my bed and my brother on my side. Interrogating me like how a protective older brother would be. I take deep breaths before telling him everything. Starting from my crazy happy dilutions 'till the part where I end up passed up in the park.