What Happens in Glastonbury

Getting Over It

(Olly PoV)

I didn't sleep that night at all. How did it all go so wrong. I laid in bed going over the events of the night again and again wondering if it was my fault.

"Are you ok?" I asked Zoe, she was laid in bed next to me, I think we both felt like we needed each other for support. It seemed unlikely that Jesse or Sam would come back after what had happened. Zoe was heartbroken. I felt so guilty that Jesse had caused this, well been part of it I guess, Sam was as much to blame but I knew Zoe wouldn't see it like that.

"Yeah. I will be. Maybe, one day, maybe when I'm 80?" She joked, with watery eyes and tear stained cheeks, she just laid there staring at the ceiling.

"I'm really sorry, Zo, I'm sorry for what Jesse did" I said, rubbing her arm.

"Don't worry, it was just as much Sam, he started it. It's probably a good thing anyway, I should have been getting over it a long time ago" said Zoe. She was right but I knew that wasn't what she wanted.

Her eyes were getting tearier.

"Don't cry babe" I said leaning in to cuddle her

"No man is worth your tears" I added, stroking her arm gently.

"I know, I just.. I love him so much Ol" Zoe sobbed. I felt so sad for her, I couldn't imagine being so completely in love with someone so unattainable.

"I know you do" I said sympathetically, there was nothing I could say or do that was going to make her feel any better.

She was going to have to let her heart break, cry all of her tears and then let time heal it. And it would, but I knew as well as she did that it was going to get worse before it got better.

I laid there cuddling my best friend as she sobbed into my shoulder, if I couldn't fix things for her, I could at least be there for her whilst she was at her most vulnerable. After a few minutes of crying her heart out she calmed down a little, pulling herself together enough to say

"I want to get over him, I don't want to have to feel like this anymore"

"I think that's the best idea Zo, you deserve to be more than someone's bit on the side. And you will fall in love again if you give it a chance" I replied, I really hoped she would leave him alone now, that was it, a fresh start, no more heartbreak.

"But for now I just wanna stay here, eat ice-cream and feel sorry for myself" she forced a weak smile. I smiled back

"Good plan, if it makes you feel any better, we can be heartbroken and try to get over them together because I don't think Jesse will be coming back. I'll stay here with you, eat ice cream in our pyjamas and cry over the men we've lost" I suggested, smiling, trying to cheer her up a little. When in reality I was feeling as crushed as she was.

"Heartbroken?" Zoe questioned, screwing up her face in confusion at my choice of words.

"You're in love with Jesse?" She asked. I nodded.

"Yeah I think so, or.. thought so" I admitted, awkwardly

"I hadn't even told him yet. It seemed a bit soon, given that neither of us even said we were officially dating. I didn't want to seem crazy and scare him off" I added

"Oh babe. I had no idea, I thought he annoyed you!" Said Zoe

"He did... at first, until I realised, he probably wasn't a serial killer" I smiled

"We slept together for the first time tonight" I admitted

"Oh Ols! Don't let him go! You've got no reason to get over him, so he messed up tonight, it's not really a big deal-breaker, is it?

....he's not married like Sam!" Said Zoe

She had a point. I thought for a moment

"Oh, I don't know. He really let me down tonight" I replied

"Yeah, I know, but honestly I think he was just trying to defend you. And Sam was really out of line. I'm sorry" said Zoe, sincerely.

"Forget about it. It's done, whether he was sticking up for me or not he shouldn't have hit Sam, he barely even knows him, it's not his business" I replied, even though I was starting to realise that maybe I had overreacted and that maybe he had no choice, Sam did start it. When faced with letting a stranger smack the crap out of you or defending yourself I guess most men would choose the latter.

I just wasn't used to seeing him like that, he scared me a bit to think he could fight like that, he really laid into Sam, and I wondered what the outcome would have been if Zoe and I hadn't dragged them apart.

I was so used to him being sweet and gentle that maybe it just took me by surprise to see that side of him.

"Call him" suggested Zoe

"Fix it, he honestly seems nice, don't let me and Sam's screwed up situation ruin something good" she added. I didn't want to call him, it was too soon, we both needed to cool off and have some space.

I would call him. But not tonight.

"Maybe I will tomorrow" I answered.

We both laid there on my bed silently for a moment, both staring at the ceiling, both lost in thought.

"You slept with Jesse tonight?" Asked Zoe, turning her face to me.

"Yeah" I replied, turning to face her too

"In this bed?" She asked

I nodded. Oh.

"Ewww! Olly!" Zoe jumped up, grabbing a blanket draped over the back of my desk chair she laid it out over the bed before laying back down.

I couldn't help but laugh.

"I'd also avoid the couch...and the kitchen counter" I said, barely containing my laughter.

"OLLY!!" Zoe yelled

"Sorry!" I replied. Still laughing.

Once I'd managed to stop giggling, I asked

"So, what are you going to do about Sam? What are you going to say to him?"

Zoe sighed heavily

"Oh, I don't know" she replied, I could tell this was really having an impact on her mentally. She looked exhausted too, but I knew that the stress and the heartbreak that came with falling for someone else's man must be really tough. I wanted to be there for her but truthfully, I had no idea what to do for the best.

"I'm going to end it" she said quietly, I knew full well that wasn't what she wanted but maybe it was what needed to happen.

"I know how much you love each other, Zo but maybe it would be for the best to try? I mean in a year or two you might meet someone that you love so much more but as long as you're messing around with Sam, you're never going to give anyone else a chance" I explained, hoping I wasn't crossing a line into telling her how to live her life. I wasn't trying to, I absolutely thought Zoe and Sam should be together, I'd never seen two people love so passionately, so intensely, they were so good together but unfortunately circumstances meant that it just couldn't be, and I wasn't sure anything could change that. Even if Sam had decided to leave his wife that then left the huge mess with Zoe's family. She was always going to be torn between Sam and her family, stuck in the middle forever, and what would happen if they had kids? Their Dad could never go to their Grandparents house, not for Birthdays and Christmas, it would be a logistical nightmare, not to mention a huge emotional strain. There was no way that it could work out. The only option was to end it... and move on.