[DISCONTINUED] ❝Ante Mortem❞ 【Sally Face】

【l ; releasing everything】

【Author's Note : I HAD TIME TO GO TYPE DOWN THE FIFTIETH CHAPTER- hello everyone I AM ALIVE!! My modules consist of me writing so much :'))) it really hurts- anyway! Here's the chapter fifty! Some truth bombs might be dropped here :0 enjoy reading!!】

The walk towards the café was.. well, eventful probably?

You stayed behind with Sal as you try to gather your thoughts, but somehow the more you think about what you're going to say just gets you even more anxious. He doesn't really know what's the deal or what you're thinking of, but you're just really glad he's just there to- to be at your side, you know? He's pretty sweet, even if he used to be rude to you before. You would take deep breaths once in a while, and he would pull you close with a side hug.

It's sweet. He was warm, and the fact that winter was nearing that he's being there to give you warmth. It was really sweet that you almost cried.

Well, part of it was because you're still anxious as fuck.

About what?

About your thoughts.

You're compiling everything you've been feeling the past months since you've been here. Compiling every single bit of information, every feeling, every experience- especially that- that voice you've been hearing.

You remember that one time Sal said he'd hear it.. around you.

What does it mean?

You didn't know, and that's why you're going to release all of them when you get to the café.

"Hey guys!"

You suddenly freeze, eyes wide as you look up to find yourself inside the café already. You see Ash waving you guys over as Selene brings a glasses of water over to them.

You suddenly feel cold, you suddenly weren't prepared.

"Y/N, are you alright?" Mina asks, sitting you beside her as Sal takes the seat on your other side. You turn to her, feeling unnerved. She only smiles kindly, saying, "Sal mentioned it earlier that you weren't feeling well. You weren't checking the messages on the group chat too."

"I-" You turn to your phone, realising that you had turned it off all this time. You turned it on, chuckling at the notifications making noise. Turning it off again, you turn to them, "Well.. he's right. I'm not well. I was, but not now. Oh god, where am I going with this?"

"I guess you have something to tell the group?" Sal calls out, holding your hand underneath the table. "You were the one to suggest that we gather here anyway."

And with that, you began talking.

You laid out each and every experience, memory, feeling, thoughts, opinions, and all other things you could tell them.

You mentioned how you had a bad feeling before coming to Nockfell, but that was relieved when you met them all. You were terribly grateful to have met them. To have accidentally knocked on Gab's door and meet him.

You mentioned about the nightmares you've had- running down a long hallway and then suddenly feeling so depressed when you didn't reach it in time. You notice Mina staring at you in horror about that, but you went on and on. You continued. You told them how you wake up crying from those nightmares, wondering why you're so broken over not reaching the hallway in time.

You mentioned about the voice- that godforsaken voice that would haunt you for hours until you force yourself to forget them.

You mention the first time you heard the voice, when- when-

You pause, eyes wide.

"When what?" Liam asks, worried about you.

At this point you were already bawling your eyes out, unable to hold every emotion you've been trying to hide. They let you cry anyway, with Sal being the one to comfort you by putting an arm over your shoulder. Mina had been the one handing you tissues to wipe your tears with. Selene had been the one to provide the tissues.