When Everything Falls (De Chaves #1)

CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR

CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR

We stayed like that for almost an hour. When the sky let up, Bellamy decided to go home. Akala ko nga ay hindi na titila ang ulan. Mabuti naman at hindi na niya kailangang matulog sa bahay. The idea of him sleeping with me in my room wasn't good especially that I was planning to tell to my mother about us. Kahit naman wala kaming gagawin ay hindi pa rin iyong magandang pakinggan.

I wasn't acting prude; I was totally aware of the things couples do. But then, I wasn't yet ready to that part and Bellamy knew it. I greatly appreciate what he did awhile— instead of letting the tide of desire to haul us out of our senses, he stopped. Gusto kong sampalin ang aking sarili dahil ako mismo ay hindi kinayang pigilan ang aking sarili.

Noong nakompirma kong nakauwi na si Bellamy ay agad na rin akong tumungo sa aking kwarto para matulog. Next week, birthday na ni Lola. Nakaready na rin ang aking isusuot. I guess that would be the perfect time to inform Papa and Lola about my relationship with Bellamy. I cannot let Lilith cloud their minds. Mas mahihirapan akong klarohin ang lahat kung papatagalin ko pa ito.

I knew that I should have corrected earlier their wrong assumption toward Bellamy and Lilith. Now, I will make sure that whatever Lilith was telling to them will be corrected. Ayoko rin na iparamdam kay Bellamy na iiwan ko siya para sa kagustohan ng pamilya ko. I didn't know but when it comes to Bellamy, I felt the monster of selfishness gnawing my entire system.

Amid of my reverie, my phone chimed startlingly. Napatingin ako doon at agad na sinagot. It was Bellamy. Akala ko ay hindi na siya tatawag.

"Hello," his voice was groggy.

"Hmm?" I only said; I cannot stop the smile peeking through my face.

"You like me," he mumbled.

Hanggang ngayon hindi ka pa rin makapaniwala, Bellamy? Hindi ko alam na ganito ka pala ka dense. You flirted so many women and I thought that your experience with them would be of use for you to not miss any sign of admiration from the people around you, but it seemed like you cannot even use it for your own advantage. Had you ever realized that I will never let you kiss me if I didn't like you? Gusto kong sabihin lahat ng 'to sa kaniya pero pinigilan ko nalang ang sarili ko.

"Hindi ka pa ba inaantok?" I yawned, I could feel the side of my eyes welling up tears. Inaantok na talaga ako. But my heart was fully awake. Hindi ko alam kung huhupa ito sa pagkabog ng sobrang bilis at lakas.

"You are my girlfriend now," Bellamy croaked, "I am so happy, love."

Wala na, suko na ako. Hinayaan ko na ang ngiti na sumabog sa aking labi. I closed my eyes as I daydreamed of him. I could still feel his hot and soft lips grazing over my skin. What happened awhile was memorable. Halos magkasabay ang kabog ng aming puso. Gusto kong tumili dahil sa iniisip pero pinigilan ko kasi alam kong nakikinig si Bellamy sa kabilang linya.

We talked almost an hour— we talked about some random stuff that did not ever concern our life. The moment I shared with him in the phone drawn a familiar pang of jubilation to my chest. I was so happy right now. I could not describe the felicity that lodged on my chest. How ironic to think that a few weeks ago, I was contemplating of the things that I needed to do to make a grand surprise. Gano'n lang pala kadali. It was so easy to tell what you feel when you were in the middle of uncontrollable happiness.

Pagkatapos naming mag-usap sa telepono ay agad na akong natulog. A smile was plastered on my lips. Hindi ko alam kung anong oras ako kinain ng antok.

Days rolled in. Tonight was the celebration of Lola Esmeralda. The sun was hanged brightly atop us; casting a perfect golden glow. Wind crawled through my skin as I ambled toward our house. Kakahatid lang sa akin ni Bellamy. We went to their house. Gusto kasi akong makita ng kaniyang Mama. Kahit ilang beses na kaming nag-uusap ay hindi pa rin mawala ang kaba sa aking dibdib. Though, her approach wasn't the same as before— she was all smiles every time I was with her.