Midnight Fantasies(Completed)

Night Mare

“Maybe it was, but for me it is” God, eto nanaman siyam nagwalkout nanaman siya, I grab her hand. She was looking at me, alam mo yung puno ng sakit yung mga mata niya, I know she hates me, but I don’t care I don’t fucking even care, ang gusto ko lang mayakap ko siya.

“Ano ba!” She said, I was hugging her tightly, pakiramdam ko nawala yung frustration ko. God I miss her.

“Bitawan mo nga ako break na tayo!” Sigaw padin niya, nilayo ko siya and I kiss her neck, I miss her neck.

“A-ano ba k-karl” I kiss it again and again.

Tumingin siya sa mata ko, nagulat ako ng umiiyak na siya. Fuck I don’ knowt what to do, what should I do, I just looking at her.

“Tama naman na Karl, ayoko maging isa mga babae mo” I was looking at her.

“Ikaw lang ang babae ko” Umiling-iling siya.

“Ako lang? Ilang babae na ang sinabihan mo niyan? Ilang babae na ang pinaasa mo sa salitang yan” She said, napabuntong hininga ako.

 

“I was just fuck hindi ko kayang magbago para sayo” I said, totoo naman, I like her pero hinding-hindi ako magbabago para sakaniya.

“May itatanong ako sayo, ano ba’ko sayo? Ano bang alam mong meron tayo?” She said, pakiramdam ko ibang kates na yung kaharap ko.

“You are my girlfriend, and I’m your boyfriend” I said, she shake her head.

“No, you are my boyfriend but I’m not your girlfriend Karl, I’m just like those girl na kapag sawa kana iiwan muna” She said while crying fuck, pakiramdam ko nadudurog ang puso ko sa sinasabi niya.

“Alam mo ba kung ano ang kaisa-isahang rule sa isang relationship?” Nanatili lang ako sakaniya.

“Never lie”

“But I don’t lie to you, yung nakita mo its was just fuck” Paano ko ba ipapaliwanag ng maayos.

“Yes it was just fucking with the clothes on” Umiling siya, tumingin siya sakin.

“I don’t want to mess with you again Karl, dehado kasi ako, alam mo kung bakit? Because I’m wiling to be your girlfriend but you, you’re not” She said, habang tuluyang ng lumayo sakin, and fuck I felt ache in my heart. I just felt it and I don’t know how can I bear that fucking ache.

Nakatitig lang ako sakaniya and by watching her walking out of my way, it feels like shit. Gusto ko siya habulin but I know I cant. She’s right I can’t be her boyfriend, because I don’t love her, but if I don’t why do I feel this.