Midnight Calls - Han

Chapter 2

Since I connected the best with Han during our call, we broke one of the rules, and gave each other our Kakao ID. We are not supposed to do this because K-pop idols have very strict rules when it comes to this stuff. They are not allowed to give out any personal information to fans, including their phone number. Although, sadly, saesang fans always find a way. Idols have to change their number so much because of saesang fans. It's the sad truth, but Han seemed to trust me enough. I would never leak his number for as long as I live. I even promised that to him. So, from that day on, we spoke on the phone privately. According to their contract, Stray Kids only have one more year left on their dating ban, then it's lifted. I'm secretly holding out on that dating ban, hoping that I get to date Han. I also turn 18 next year, which makes me legal, and it might make me able to date Han. That's just a safety thing for me. I try not to date any guys 5 years or older than me. For Han, it's perfect because he's only 3 years older than me.

Ah, but I shouldn't get my hopes up. It is better for us to be friends anyway. Dating a celebrity can be a slippery slope. Dating someone in the K-pop industry would be even more sketchy. Countless of girls fell off the face of the earth because they were found out by the K-pop idol's fans. The girls would get so much hate, that they wouldn't want to continue the relationship. For other idols, they successfully hide the relationship from everyone. Take Chen of EXO for example. Nobody had any idea about his girlfriend, now wife. On top of that, he had a daughter. Literally nobody knew, except for the EXO members.

I tell myself that dating Han would be a bad idea. Being friends with him is good enough. I already explained myself enough, so allow me to move on. Most times, when Han calls me, it's like midnight where I am. I have school the next day, but it's online. I know it's just as important. I'm just waiting until we get back to in-person school. While Han and I are on the phone, he tries his best to get everyone out of the room because he doesn't want them knowing that he continued to contact me. As long as we remain friends, everything should be fine.

When I woke up at 6:30am for school, I am so tired. These days since I stay up to talk to Han, I only get an average of 6 or 7 hours. I usually get 10 because I love sleeping.
Han: Good morning :)
Me: Thx, how's ur night?
Han: It's good, we're working hard
Me: I'm listening to Insomnia right now
Han: Feels like you have it huh? ㅋㅋㅋ
Me: oh for sure ㅋㅋㅋ
Han: I should let you get ready for school, study hard for me☺
Me: I will, don't worry ☺
Han: Good, bye bye😚
Me: Bye😁
I put my phone away so I could get ready for school. When I finish showering and putting on an outfit to go literally no where, I'm ready for school. Most of my classes have a video call on Google Meets, except for PE. I've gotten super lazy with PE, but there's no way the teacher can tell if I've actually done anything or not. As for my other classes, I'm doing pretty good at keeping up, except for a quiz here and there. When I forgot to do a quiz my grade tanked, and I felt terrible. There was no way for me to still do it because it got locked. Now, I have to make sure I keep up with the other stuff so my grade can be risen back up. Hopefully I can get that fixed.

All the stress from online school aside, at least I've got Han to talk to every night. It's one of the things I always look forward to. He makes all my stress disappear. Whenever I tell him how much school is kicking my butt, he reminds me that this will pass too. Nothing is permanent, so I will just have to keep fighting and trying. I really appreciate him for his wonderful advice. He has been to high school too, but it's different when you go to an international school, like Han did. I wonder if it's any different than high schools in America. It has to be, right? I should ask him about it.

When school got over with at 3pm, I spent a little extra time working on the assignments assigned to me today. Then, when that is mostly finished, I go to do my own thing. I use most of my time watching videos, writing, listening to music, or playing video games. Now, late nights are filled with Han's cute face. I'm surprised that the Stray Kids have yet to find out about us. . . Han is doing a really good job at keeping our conversations a secret.

Tonight, we just talked about random stuff. Han told me what he worked on with Stray Kids today. Man, it feels like Stray Kids can never catch a break. That's our hardworking boys. I wish they would have at least one break. I mean, they must be exhausted. Anyways, we had this really cute moment. Han and I are singing You Can STAY together. Our harmonies are so pretty. Han can reach those high notes, and he can also rap amazingly. I feel like he can do it all. Oh, why do I have to fall in love with him? My heart has such a strong connection to him. Even though we are miles apart, just having him on my phone screen is enough for me. As I'm falling asleep to Han's sweet singing and voice, I am smiling to myself. Eventually, he hangs up. This is the first time I've fallen asleep during our conversation. I must be exhausted from school, it stresses me out way too much.