Introvspect

Epilogue

Dear Jasie,

Hey there.

You should already know me by now.

I think this would be longer than the last one. I’m just giving you a heads up.

So, assuming that you have read it.

How is it? Do you like it?

My mind really exerted effort to make it seem interesting if it is for you. Not that I’m saying that you’re the one that made it boring or what. It would be my fault after all. Blame me all you want hehe.

I’m still just an amateur and that should be understandable. I just write what comes and goes if the ideas are worthy to be noted. I have trouble planning ahead of time. Changes always follow and procrastination awaits me.

I’m just sad that it’s finally over or is it really?

Just kidding. It is haha.

I’m really curious about what you’re thinking right now. Maybe, you’ve expected this or think that I’ve overdone a whole lot of things just for this simple ending but what could I say?

I’ve travelled too far in my vision and this was all I could think of. I just don’t want to be so cliché. I really tried. If you’d reply to me, I’d really appreciate your thoughts.

But why won’t you? Are you scared of me?

Don’t be. I’m just me and you’re you.

That’s a big difference there.

If we could become friends, I’d rather want to become your sister. If I’ll call you sis and you’ll do the same then that would be immaculate.

Oh…if only it was possible.

Where are my manners?

I’ll quit talking about me now.

How’s your family? And your “best” friends?

I sincerely hope that they’re all doing well especially “him” *heart fingers*. You two should be together “in the future”.

If you’re wondering how I knew all of them, they’re just there all the time duh. If you were in my shoes, you’d be smart enough to distinguish them. It took me a little too long since I rarely went out.

We’re both similar there.

For your information, life really intrigues me. There’s something so right and so wrong about it. I don’t have anyone to share my opinions with except you. It is only you I could trust apparently, others won’t listen to me.

I guess you’ve thought about of those things I’ve shared huh?

You should at least strive to remember them. I could have indirectly given you some advice that way hehe. I would like that. But they’re just personal okay?

I’m not contradicting anyone. I just stated them as I wanted. Don’t judge me badly. I beg of you, Jasie.

“What has gotten into her?”

“What is wrong with her?”

“What is she talking about?”

You can say those about me hehe.

Lastly, that special journal from where you’ve read, weren’t you supposed to find something in there?

It was a thoughtful gift you know. I made good use of it since you never used it.

I dare you to go look for it ASAP. I don’t want to spoil the thrill hahaha. It’s supposed to be for you but here I am feeling hopeful.

Why did I test that pen on that portion?

Come on! It’s unfair!

Still though, good luck with seeing that.

My…my…I’m becoming sadder now. I said it all in this one letter. Even though we’ve never truly met. I’m still glad to have known you.

If you’re feeling down and hopeless, you should understand that problems are what make you better and stronger.

If you’re feeling ugly and unloved, those are lies since there would always be someone out there who would realize your true beauty from within and out.

That someone should be able to love you unconditionally.

You remember that I’m still your number one fan right?

Love yourself more. Please. That’s the only way you can be happy.

This is goodbye but not for long...Till next time. You should reply for real and I thank you in advance.

Sincerely yours,

Gem (Not anonymous for now)

P.S. Raphael really loves you. Give him a chance would you?