A Guide To Giving Up (ON GOING)

Chapter 1

I wanna die but I'm scared of death..Am i crazy?-i asked myself while looking blankly at my food 'I didn't even touch it' Ayways it's our lunch break  so we're basically here in the cafeteria eating our lunch while talking some nonsense stuff such as 'How's life if i haven't existed' Like bruh...

And nah nothing would change at all.. Because i am a nobody with a handsome bestfriend.

"Wouldn't it be great if i didn't exist?Or di nalang ako pinanganak?" i ask yuno infront of me while frowning.

"Stop talking nonsense Aza, You know that I'm always here for you right?" yuno my childhood bff said.

"Tss, You always tell's me that like a million times now Yuno" nakakaasar na talaga tong ungoy na to."Paalala mo nga ulit sakin kung pano kita naging kaibigan?"

"Kasi nga gwapo ako!" he said while raising he's eyebrow up and down, teasing the fuck out of me."At dahil mabait akong tao pinag tsagaan ko ang bakulaw na katulad mo" sabay hablot ng bag nya tsaka dire-diretsong tumakbo palabas ng cafeteria.Aba't napakasama talaga ng ugali nitong pangit na ungoy na to.

"Ah ganon, bakulaw pala ah!Humanda ka pag ikaw na abutan ko!!" i said as i ran as fast as i can para maabutan ko ang pangit na ungoy na yun. Bwesit talaga sya."Asan si yuno?" tanong ko sa mga ka klase namin ng makarating ako sa classroom.

"Nasa labas pa ata, dipa yun pumasok ,But i saw him at the gym"-one of my classmate said as he points the gymnasium's direction.

"Okay thanks" he just nodded and smiled at me "I'm coming for you monkey" i said to myself fliping my hair before running towards our school gymnasium.And there i saw yuno sitting on the bench holding something,Hmm i wonder what is it."Andito ka lang pala ah!" I said as i attacked him with my small punches that he can clearly avoid.

"Stop" he said coldly but then he's emotion change when he notice i was looking at the thing he's holding"W-what are you doing here?" yuno ask, as if he's hiding something from me.

I rolled my eyes at him, tsk what a dummy "Why?? Am i not allowed to go here?!Ikaw Nangaasar eh"

"I mean how did you find me?"

"Resources" i said proudly,"Anyways what's that?" hindi naman ako tsesmosa I'm just curious.

"N-nothing" Lame answer my brain shout at he's response, i know he's hiding something Monkey always tells me he's problems. And i known him for 11years now ,so basically i know when he's lying.

"Tell me, i know you're lying" i said as a mater of fact.

"I told you it's nothing!" he said forcing a laugh.

"Do you have any problems monkey?" i seriously ask him.. I need to know.

"Tsk, you're so annoying bakulaw, i told you it's nothing.. Come on,let's go back to our classroom" errr bwesit talaga tong pangit nato.. Siguro babae na naman yan.. Tss ayaw lang talaga ipaalam sakin. At teka nga!! Ano bang paki ko kung sa ibang babae yun??Ba't ako nagseselos? Ayy basta.. "Tara na bakulaw!" sigaw ni yuno at na unang mag lakad sakin.

"Uyyy, ano ba kasi yun?" i ask him again.

"Wala nga, tska tumahimik kana bakulaw ang ingay mo" ito na na man po sya at nag sisimula na naman ng away.

"Tsss, can't you just tell me?" i sound desperate now.

"No" he said then pinch my cheeks and pat my head, tsk he's really thankful hes tall.