skinny love || joe sugg

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*Celinas POV*

It's been nearly a year since I've moved back to Germany. I totally enjoyed it but it was time to move back to London.
I've been wearing the necklace Joe gave me for my birthday last year everyday. It was silver and had the letter 'J' on it, like J in Joe. I really did miss him. That's why I planned a little surprise.

"Please fix your seatbelt we're gonna land in Heathrow in 5 minutes"

I put my phone in my bag and fixed my seatbelt. I told nobody that I'll move back. Well I told my parents.
I haven't had any contact to one of the youtubers but I was planning something to surprise Joe. But therefore I needed Caspars help. Lets hope he still has his old phone number.

As soon as the plain landed I tried to get out as quick as possible. I grabed my bag and looked for my suitcases. After I found them I jogged out of the airport and looked for my dad whi said he'll pick me up.

"Celina" I spun around and saw him smiling. I ran over and hugged him. "I've missed you Dad" I said in happy tears. "I've missed you too"

Turns out my mum made a welcoming dinner for me which was extremely delicious. Now I was sitting in my 'old' room which hasn't changed one bit. I took my phone and sent Caspar a text.

Hey Caspar, it's Celina. I don't know if you even remember me, we met last year because of Joe. Please don't tell him I've texted you.

It's been nearly half an hour and he still hasn't text me back. What if he changed his number? What am I going to do then?
I was about to start unpacking my clothes when my phone went of.

Omg is it really you? Where have you been? how are you? are you back in the UK? I miss you, Celina x

That made me smile. I missed him so much. Now lets hope this plan will work out.

I'm fine and yeah I'm back. I missed you a lot, Cas. How's Joe doing? x

Yay! Can we meet up? Well Joe's ok now he's going out way to often and he's kind of sleeping around with a lot of girls. X

There it goes, my plan to surprise Joe. He forgot me. Maybe I shouldn't have moved back. It just will make everything worse. I'm just so stupid. how could I think Joe would've missed me. He could have so many girls. Well, he has them. Maybe I should just forget about him.
I was in deep thoughts until my phone went of again.

I'm sorry I shouldn't have told you. Can I come around? x

Yeah!

It took 20 minutes until somebody rung the doorbell. I sprinted down the stairs and opened the door. I began to smile and hugged him. He hugged me back instantly. "I've missed you so much" I whispered in his ear. "I missed you even more than that." he whispered back.
"Come in" I said as we pulled apart. He gladly took my offer and went straight into my room. He only has been here once last year but he still remembers everything.
He sat down on my bed and I sat next to him. "Listen I'm sorry I really shouldn't have told you that stuff about J-" "Caspar stop. it's ok. He's 23 years old I think he know's what he's doing." "Yeah but it's wrong he's just doing it because he never got over you. He didn't even upload his videos constantly. He's a complete mess." It's all my fault. I didn't know. "I'm so sorry." was all I could say before breaking into tears. Caspar just hugged me at this point. "Why did you even leave?" "Because I loved Joe and I knew it wouldn't work out. He's the youtube star and I'm just me. His viewers wouldn't have ever accepted me as his girlfriend. I just couldn't take it."
"Do you still love him?" he asked me.
"Yes" I answered honestly.
"Then tell him. He loves you since the first day you met."
"How would you know?"
"He talks about it in his sleep. He really loves you, please tell him you do too. I want the old Joe back."
"But how?"
"I'm flying back to South Africa tomorrow morning. So you could just come around after I left an talk to him."
"Well ok." I wasn't a 100% sure about that plan but I just wanted to see Joe.

Half an hour later Caspar left and I got into bed. As i woke up next morning it was 10 am. I got into my shower, applied some makeup and straightened my hair. I canged into a light blue skaterskirt and a white croptop. I couldn't eat anything I was too nervous. I took my black leather jacket and my black converse and went out of the door. I made my way to Joe's apartment in the shortest time ever.
I took a deep breath and knocked on the door.