I Will Always Love You. KurooxKenma Fanfic

Chapter 24- Breaking Up

   Kurto and I left the practice and started to head home. On the walk home to the sky was a burnt orange fading into a navy blue with clouds dotting the sky. We held hands as we did on every walk home. We didn't walk much because Kuroo's head was elsewhere again and I mainly played on my phone. I didn't want to ask him what was wrong. But his mood had changed so fast.
   He was in such a good when we left practice but it seemed like something he wasn't trying to think about suddenly came to his head and he had a whole 180° with his mood. 
   It's whatever I just hope he'll come to me about it.

Kuroo's Pov

Why am I thinking about this again?
   I thought I said I wouldn't let me bother me anymore. It's just when I left practice the thought of me having to leave him again popped up in my head. Even last night I woke up in a cold sweat from my dream.
   I was graduating and about to leave for college, I was saying my goodbyes to everyone and Kenma wanted to talk privately. He pulled me into a room and sighed. I looked down at him while holding his hand and asked him what was wrong. He looked me in the eyes pulled his hand back said,
    "I want to break up."
   And just like that left the room without another word. I remember seeing him just shut the door without looking back. I couldn't move and all I could do was just watch him leave, and just like that, I woke up. It was possibly one of the worst dreams I've ever had.
   Why it was still stuck in my head after a whole day I don't know but one thing I do know is that I'm terrified. I'm terrified that he might leave me by just saying three words and never looking back. If that did happen I would never be able to let go but I wouldn't beg for him either. I would do what happened in the dream, stand there, and do nothing while watching him walk out the door.
   I turned to look down at Kenma and saw him playing on his phone with one hand and holding mine with the other. He would never realize how much of a comfort him just holding my hand was. I love him with everything in me.
   Before I knew it words were spilling from my mouth.
    "Kenma, what do you think of me graduating."
   I kept starring down at him waiting for him. He turned his phone off looked up at me, brushed his blonde bangs from his face, and asked,
    "What do you mean?"
   My stomach dropped, I thought I wasn't going to talk to him about this but I might as well now since I'd be too nervous work up the nerves to do it again.
    "I mean you know I'm leaving for college after I graduate?"
   He simply shook his head,
    "Yeah I know, why?"
    "Well I mean I realize if you won't still want to be with me after I leave. It's not like I'll be here. You will probably find someone new, I won't blame you."
   As these words left my mouth Kenma looked like he was about to cry.
    "No, I don't care about that. Are you trying to break up with me or something?"
   A tear rolled down his cheek while saying this. He quickly wiped it away with his sleeve and looked away from me.
    "No! No, I'm not trying to break up with you!"
   He looked back up at me with glassy eyes.
    "Well, then why are you saying this. If anything I scared you'll want to break up with me after you see all the pretty girls at college."
   I rolled my eyes,
    "Kenma, that most definitely would never happen."
   He wiped his face again,
    "Ok and that will never happen on my side too. Don't be worried about those things."
    I sighed and smiled down at him,
I was worried for nothing.
     "Okay, you too."

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