Dreams

Ch 15: The Truth Came Out

It had been a few weeks since I heard about the death of my mother. I hadnt been sleeping much or eating. I handt been speaking either. And people have noticed. And gotten worried.

"Come on Skylar." Mel said breaking my train of thought. I looked at her but didnt speak. "Come on." She said again. She extended her hand and I took it getting up. But I didnt get far before I colapsed to the ground. Mel was instantly sitting beside me on the ground. My skin was cold and my bones ached.

"We need to get you to the hospital." She said about to yell for someone. "Please. Only you. No one else." I pleaded with her. "Someone else needs to go." She said. "Okay." I said not feeling like fighting. "Who do you want to go?" She asked me. "Bryan." I said holding my sides in pain. Pain shot through my entire body. "Zach Bryan!" She yelled. They both came in.

"Bryan you and I are taking Skylar to the hospital and Zach we are leaving." Mel said as Bryan picked me up. "You're freezing." Bryan said as he grabbed a blanket and wrapped it around me. Bryan put me in the back of Mels car and climbed in with me. Mel got in the front and drove rather fastly to the hospital.

Bryan carried me in because my body was too weak to carry me. "What happened?" A nurse said as she seen Bryan carrying me. "She colapsed." He said shortly as I was being laid on a hospital bed. I could still hear everything but I drifted out of consciousness. An IV was put into my arm and blood was taken from me. After a while a nurse came in "She is very malnurished." The nurse said. "Damn it." I heard Bryan curse under his breath.

"Why would she starve herself?" Mel asked him. "Its not for me to tell but her mom and brother passed away in a bad car accident. She got to hear her mother last words and last breath before she was gone. Jessica, her mom called the police here and had a message delivered to Skylar. She has taken it very hard. She will barely sleep she wont eat or talk much to anyone." Bryan explained. The atmosphere in the room became heavy.

"I am going to give her medicine that will give her strength. The she will need to eat something. And shes not leaving until she does." The nurse said very strongly and concerned. "I know." Mel and Bryan said at almost the same exact time.

"Sorry." I said as I was finally able to open my eyes. I looked at them with sorrow and regret in my eyes. "I would say its okay but its not." Bryan said angirly. I sat up and folded my arms over my stomach. "I know its not okay. And you have every reason to be angry with me." I said crying. "I should have talked to someone. And I know I messed up alot since I found out." I said looking down.

"Im sorry. And this is the truth. Ive lost everything ive lost my family and everything that ive ever loved. I cant lose anything else. Itll kill me!" I said to no one in particular. "You have us Skylar. You have this family that youve joined in! You are not alone! We all are here for and with you!" Bryan exclaimed as Mel sat quietly. "Im sorry god damn it! I fucked up! And im sorry!" I almost yell as the nurse came in. "Okay. Everyone out." The nurse said and no one moved. "OUT NOW!" She raised her voice and they left.

As soon as the door was shut I broke down. I cried and I couldnt stop. After about 20 minutes of crying I got sick and threw up. Luckily the nurse was quick and had a small trash can infront of me before anything came up.

"Im sorry." I say wiping my mouth. "Its okay. Worse has happened before." She said. "I know you dont want to but you need to eat babe." "Babe?" I ask taking the food. "I call everyone babe. Ive done it for years." She said giving me a fork.
When I looked at the food my mouth started watering and my stomach growled. I had forgotten how hungry I was. I ate like I hadnt eaten in weeks. And I havent eaten in a while. "How long has it been since you last ate?" She asked me handing me some water. "Uh.. About a week and a half. Maybe around 2 weeks. My mothers death has been hard on me. I cant help but feel guilty about it." I say.

"Why do you feel guilty about it?" She asks me taking my empty plate. "I dont know. I got the news and I started feeling guilty. Maybe because I didnt talk to her for a few weeks before she passed or something but I just feel like I messed up some how." I said taking a drink. I was keeping my food down. "Its not your fault. You couldnt have stopped it and you didnt know it would happen." She said. "Its true. I didnt know and I couldnt stop it. It was their time I guess. My brother had been suffering for years and my mother had gotten sick. They arent suffering anymore." I said with a slight smile. Everything was clear now. "Everything is so clear now. Thank you." I said as I pulled the nurse into a hug. "Would you like them to come back in?" She asked me pulling away.

"Yes please." I said taking another drink of water. They came in and Bryan looked sorry as Mel looked angry. Like she had yelled at him. "Sorry." Bryan said to me as he took my hand. He was serious. I pulled him into a tight hug. "Its okay." I said as I hugged him tightly. I let go of him and he sat on the end of my bed. "Its okay. I understand everything now... Everything is clear to me now." I said earning confused tooks from them.

"I felt guilty for my mom and brothers death. I didnt know why and I couldnt figure it out. But I know that it wasnt my fault and I didnt know it was going to happen and I couldnt have stopped it. My brother was suffering for years and my mother had been sick for months. They were bother suffering but now they arent suffering anymore." I said. They understood what I understood now.

I let out a big yawn. "Someones tired." Mel said giving me a small smile. "I havent slept in over a week. I need some sleep." I said as the nurse came in. "Here. Take this." She said as she handed me a small cup and refilled my water. "Sleep aid?" I asked. She nodded and walked out. "Wait." I said and I caught her before she walked out. "When can I leave?" I asked. "When I come back Ill have some papers that you can sign and you will be discharged." She said. I nodded and she left.

"We can leave soon." I said as I took the medicine. "Im sorry for raising my voice at you." Bryan appologized to me again. "Its okay. And im sorry for yelling back and im sorry for hiding all of this from y'all." I said tooking between Bryan and Mel. The nurse came in 15 minutes later and took the iv out of my arm and gave me the papers to sign. I signed them and we left.

The care ride home was silent and I fell asleep. The medicine took affect rather quickly and I was asleep after 20 mimutes of being in the car. I dont know when we got home or how I got inside but I was in a bed when I woke up the next morning.

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Well. She understands now and hopefully everything will get better. Will things get better?