Begging For The Alpha's Mercy

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Zendea's P.O.V

Ever since I came back Sebastian has been so distant, before everything, we used to talk all the time, laugh and just be consumed with one another but now, he hardly touches me or even speaks to me. It got even worse when he came back from meeting whoever he was on the phone with. I keep asking myself who she is or if I should be threatened by her but another part of me says I shouldn't. I know I was gone a long time but that doesn't mean he can replace me. Turning onto his empty side I cling to the bed covers and breathe out heavily, right then a tear escapes my eye. I made a big mistake.

"Hey," I hear Kylie's voice. Quickly wiping my tears away I turn to her and get out of bed.

"Hey." I offer her a small smile and she offers me one too.

"I miss you." I sigh.

"Kylie-"

"We all do. Maybe you might find that hard to believe but we do. Everyone knows that this was not your fault so please, come to the house." I take some time just looking at her but not responding.

I shake my head lightly. "How can I face all of you after what I did?" Wiping my tears away she lifts my head up gently.

"You're facing me right now." She says smiling.

" I'm sorry Kylie but, I can't. Not right now anyways."

"How much time do you need really? I mean come on Zendea, how long are you going to stay in this house hiding or feeling sorry for yourself. Don't you think you've done that enough this year ?"

"I -"

"You nothing. Get up, clean yourself up and do your damn job. You are our Luna for fuck sakes start acting like it." Loudly closing the front door, I watch her from our bedroom window as she heads into the woods to the pack house. After taking a shower I choose to wear light blue skinny jeans, a white long sleeve turtleneck, white sneakers and tie my hair up then head to the pack house. I don't make it through the door and to the kitchen without a few stares here and there, some greeting me and others whispering about me whilst looking at me up and down. I am not going to bow my head in shame, I choose to hold my head up high and make my way through.

"You were right." I say to Kylie entering the kitchen and she turns to me. "I was self pitying and I've been doing a lot of that lately, I need to start doing my job and that is exactly what I'm going to do but .. I may need your help."

"I'll help you." Smiling at each other, she squeezes me tightly.

"Can't breathe." I weeze out and she immediately lets me go giggling.

"Okay so the first thing we are going to start with is something I know is close to your heart, children. There is a cherity event that occurs every year where Alphas and Lunas from different packs come here with their people to donate whatever they can and all that money goes to 10 different orphanages of our choosing." My heart just fills up as she keeps on explaining.

"Wow! I can't believe you guys do that and to TEN charities?! That's more than generous." I exclaim.

"I knew you'd love this project." After decorating the cake she was busy with when I got here, she slices it up and puts it in the fridge.

"So .. How can I help?" Asking eagerly.

"Yeep! Come on." Yanking me out of the kitchen we head to Sebastian's office and she grabs a thick file then we head to the lounge and look over it. She takes me through everything, what normally happens at this event, who to look out for and who to keep happy but also what my job really is.

After hours and hours of prep I release a long sign. "Well! I don't know about you but I am beat."

"Yeah me too. Oh shit!" She says looking at her phone.