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Chapter XV- Blinded by love

Mina's POV

A week after that break up, I honestly didn't know what to feel whenever we talk. I still message her and sometimes I would think that it was the most stupid thing I made. Talking to her without telling her I love her and how special she is to me is making me feel down. Although, I don't let her notice what I felt, I knew she had an idea. 

I mean who in their right mind would ask for a friendship after a break up? Ughh silly me. Whenever she talked about that girl, I can't help but get jealous even though I know that we're already done. I really love Chaeyoung even though we just met on this stupid screen, that makes me feel pathetic. 

I fell in love with a girl whom I never met. I don't know her personally, haven't met her but she still managed to make me fall in love with her. 

But,

I can never tell her that now.

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The Next Few Days,

I decided to continue my application for that bus company. They already accepted me and now I'm complying all the requirements they have. Today is the schedule to get my results for the psychological test I did few weeks back. As I was riding a bus, my head is still thinking about Chaeng. What went wrong and how much I'm missing her and just chat her randomly. 

I wanted to message her ever since I woke up this morning but I just held myself back thinking that maybe she'll be annoyed if I get too clingy with her and besides, I know that she have someone to greet her "good morning" already. I hate to think that but I have to be realistic and push my feelings back to respect what she decided for us to be. Sooner or later, I believe, I'll be able to forget about her completely.

With that thought, I plugged in my earphones and enjoyed the ride towards my destination. I don't want to think more about her. 

After a good twenty minutes, I arrived in front of the building and I hurriedly went inside and got into the elevator. As it started to close, I heard someone shouting "wait up!" As a reflex, I put my hand in between the elevator door. "Thank you." The guy said as he entered the lift with me. I just smiled at him and minded my own business. I'm going to the third floor, so, it's going to be just a short ride. 

After receiving the results, I checked my phone. No messages. 

"Of course, back to the old times." I whispered and chuckled. Looking at the time to see that it's just half past three in the afternoon, I decided to give my mom a text and told her I'll just go to the mall to get my mind of things.

She was quite surprised at first but still allowed me. It was very unlikely of me to go to such crowded places by myself and even I am surprised of myself too. I am tempted to ask my friends out but if I did they'll just question me when they see how down I am so I'd rather to go alone this time. 

As soon as I entered the mall, I roamed around the place to find something that could entertain and take my mind off her. After fifteen minutes, my feet took me to the place I called my safe haven, the bookstore. 

Books can sooth my mind and I find them quite a stress reliever. I immediately went to the fiction aisle and looked for interesting once. I ended up buying two books that took my attention. These books are not that popular and were hidden on the back portion of the bookstore. The cover has some scratches and it looked a bit old too but it got my attention after reading few pages. So, I decided to buy it.

I bet the cashier was weirded out as to why I bought such old looking books, with visible scratches, because she looked at me as I took out my money to buy it. 

I smiled at her as she handed the books after wrapping it up. I felt a bit happy after purchasing it and after, I went to buy some take outs for my mom and went home. Spending an hour there made my mind clearer, It was the first time that I went to such a huge mall all by myself and I felt a sense of independence that when I arrived home I already felt much better.

I guess, what I saw on tv about going out to clear your mind was really effective. Trying things out and giving yourself some "me time" is really great sometimes. 

I immediately changed and took out the books I bought and started reading it in our front door. Suddenly I wanted to read somewhere I can see people and some place with a bit of noise. Maybe, to not feel lonely, I don't know.

"Dear, let's have dinner." I heard my mom called me. I didn't notice that it was already seven in the evening and so I put a bookmark on my progress and put my book down the table. "Coming, mom." I said and walked to the kitchen.

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On the other side

Chaeyoung just got out of school as she was busy with some paper works needed for her class the next day. She was the only one remaining there so she decided to give her Mina a call. After dialing, she waited for the other girl to answer but she did not. Chaeyoung was weirded out because Mina always pick up the call fast but now she didn't. Chaeyoung called again but still no luck.

"Is she avoiding me now?" She said while looking at her phone. She then felt guilty, thinking that she really is so selfish to keep Mina even though she knew the girl was badly hurt by her. She knew Mina still love her and talking to her must be hard for the older. 

"Is she trying to move on from me now?" that thought scared Chaeyoung even though she was the one who ended their relationship. She's getting confused about what she feels. She knew she like her friend that's why she ended things with Mina to avoid cheating on the girl and hurt her more but now she's having doubts. 

She shook her head and dialed Mina's number again. "We're just friends now, it's better this way." Chaeyoung kept telling herself.

"Hello?" she heard Mina answered from the other side.

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A/N: been a long time ><