~ Traitor ~

Chapter Twenty Three

Raelynn's POV

Every relationship goes through it's rough patches right? The arguing, the not speaking for days? We've argued so much recently and over really stupid, little things that blow up into massive things. We then don't talk for days and it's one massive vicious cycle.

I could already sense another argument, considering he was stomping round his house, being moody, snappy and giving me the silent treatment, or one word answers.

"Out with it." I say to him, fed up.
"What?" He snaps back.
"What's wrong with you? Ever since I got here you've been moody, snappy and horrible."
"It's just things I hear.. I can't do this anymore Rae.."
"What?"
"I see accusations online, constantly, that you're seeing someone else. I can't do it."
"You honestly believe the media?" I ask, already trying to stop tears.
"I don't know what to think anymore!" He shouts back.
"Why would I hurt you like that? I've never loved anyone more in my life.."
"You need to leave.. were done."
"Please... I didn't do anything."
"I said leave."

I grab my car keys and what belongings I could. Marley jumped into my car without hesitating and we left. I didn't want to go home and be on my own.
I decide to call my brother, even though I know it will end badly.

"Hey Rae- what's wrong?" I couldn't even get words out. "Do you wanna send me your location? I can come get you?"
I try to gather myself as Marley drops a toy in my lap.
"He broke up with me.." I say quietly.
"What?"
"Can I stay with you for a couple of days please? I don't wanna be on our own right now..."
"Of course! Me and a few of the guys are here now but of course you can."
"Okay.. I'll be about ten minutes."

I park at his house and sit in the car. I'd been there about ten minutes, trying to make sure I held it together so I didn't cry in front of any of them. Marley ran around his garden while I waited at the door. Door opens and Virg is the first one to hug me.

"I'm going to hurt him." He tells me and I shake my head.
"You can't. It's private matters. I don't want this to affect the team, or anyone getting in trouble with the club."
"But-"
"Promise me?"
"I promise."

I sat with them all, having not spoken a word. My eyes were so puffy, red and sore from me rubbing them so much from the crying. I didn't want to move, eat or sleep. Just lying there numb seemed a perfect option. Marley would try dropping toys in my lap and even though I tried to act happy for him, he knew I wasn't.

They all left about 1130, they just gave me a hug or pat on the back as they left. They're all like older brothers so it's going to be so difficult to control them at training tomorrow.

"We should head to bed." Jord says quietly. I follow him, not being able to say anything. As soon as I get into bed, I just lose it all over again. Marley is going up and down the stairs with as many toys as he can carry and dropping them on the bed. My brother ends up coming back and just sitting with me for what felt like hours.

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Waking up the next morning was hard. I didn't want to move, I just wanted to try and sleep to get through it. I knew I couldn't, so I dragged myself out of bed. I covered up what I could with make up and tied my hair in a bun.

"What do you want for breakfast?" Jordan asks.
"Nothing.."
"You need to eat something."
"I'm not hungry."
"Even if it's small. I just want you to eat something, okay?"

I manage a mouthful or two. I already know how hard training is going to be.
The drive was pretty much silent and I didn't move when we got there.

"I'm sure the club wouldn't mind if you took the day off.."
"That's not fair on the team though." I reply, looking at Marley. "It's my job."
"I know."

I walk in and he's laughing his head off with some of the other team mates - like he doesn't even care. I sit in my office, trying to think of anything else.

I go and get ready, change into my boots and pull on a new training jacket. I'm setting up a few drills as they all have a pre talk with Jurgen before splitting into groups. My luck is that my job is to work mainly
with the defenders.

"I want you to practice a few clearing drills, as it wasn't good enough at the weekend. Keepers, mainly positioning so it will be best for you to go and work with the attack for today." I could see T talking and not paying attention to what I was saying, at all. Virg turns, looks at him and slaps him across the back of the head and tells him to listen.

Soon after, it's the break and I sit as far away from him as possible. Sitting at the lunch tables to make notes and look at what I'd written from the game at the weekend a tray of food is placed in front of me.
"Eat what you can. You're not letting him do this to you." I look up and Mo sits in front of me.
"My brother set you on to that didn't he?"
"He may or may not have."
"I can't... I'm just not hungry. He was literally everything to me."
"I know. But you'll get through it."
"Will I?" I sit, just twirling the fork round in the food, unable to concentrate or find the will to want to eat any of it.

We had a week off after this week, so I'm honestly relieved. I plan on not moving from my bed other than to shower. I'm just finding it extremely difficult to process, knowing I thought I'd met my forever. But like Mo said, I can get through it, right?