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monday 10:12am sander

I wait to come in the class, the teacher arrives and we all enter, when I try to she stops me.
- Hey Sander, what's that ? she asks suspiciously pointing my face with her finger.
- Nothing, okay ?
I try to enter but she stops me again.
- Nothing ?
- Yeah, nothing, I just fell.
- It doesn't look like you just fell.
I sight.
- Can I just enter the room please, I dont want to talk about it.
- Because it is too painful to talk about it ? Because you are ashamed ? You know you shouldn't be ashamed to-
- I am not ashamed ! I don't wanna talk about it because there is nothing to say about it, that's it.

I try to enter once again, but she stops me once again.
- Fuck can't I just come in ?! I yell
She is dead calm.
- Did your parents do that ?
- What ? No !
- Sander, I am worried about you, the other day when you came here even thought you were in a depressed episode, this was already really problematic from your dad to do that but now this (she points my face with her finger) is a whole new problem. This is serious Sander, okay ?
I laugh ironically.
- What do you want me to tell you ? Uh ?!
- The truth.
- Okay then, listen carefully because it seems like the first time you didn't hear anything : I - FELL.
Now it is her who is sighting.
- Sander if you dont tell me the truth I am gonna call your parents.
I frown.
- What ? Why ??
- Because it is obvious that there is a problem with the way they are taking care of you.
- This is bullshit, I dont need anyone to take care of me I am good on my own !
- So they are not taking care of you at all ?
- What ? No ! When I need help they help me, what do you think ? They aren't that horrible !

There is a silence.

- Look you told me about your bipolar disorders, and I didn't say anything to anyone. You can trust me Sander.
I look down. She continues :
- So tell me Sander, what happened ?
I take a deep breath and try to look the toughest I can and say :
- I just fell.

She sights and answers :
- Okay you can enter the class, you dont seem ready to talk about it.

I obey and go to my place next to Aaron.
- Man what happened ? We heard you yelling at her !
- That crazy bitch thinks that my dad is beating me !
- Woa... calm down, she is our nicest teacher !
- I know but- I just hate it when people ask me hundreds of questions that are non sense !