Broken (Shuhua)

chapter 1

Today was the group practice for their upcoming release of their song dumdi dumdi
"again, again" Was heard endlessly in the dance studio. The members were getting annoy and frustrated having to repeat the same dance steps
"Shuhua, u have to move ur right foot first then ur left why can't u do something so simple" Shouted soyeon
I'm sorry whispered shuhua
Let just end the practice here soyeon say annoyed the members all just silently packed their stuff and wait for their manager to bring them back to their dorm
In the car
The members were chatting noisily talking about random stuff laughing at some nonsensical jokes  as usual  but all shuhua did was looked out of the window
Shuhua pov
Once again I messed up. I such a burden to the group I have the least amount of lines and is always covered by another member haiss I really need to improve or I might be kicked out of the group shuhua thought
Miyeon pov
Shuhua was strangely quiet throughout the ride which is extremely surprising as she was the loudest in the group. She often makes us laugh by cracking jokes with her broken Korean
"Shuhua, ru okay" Shuhua jus nod her head yes
(Back at the dorm)
Shuhua pov
As soon as I alighted from the vehicle I immediately rush to my room without bidding goodbye to my unnie. I let out a sigh and start surfing the internet. Taking a deep breathe as the plain silence of the dorm rang back at me. scrolling throught the comment section reading it seriously.There many nice comment of my members however The more I read, the more intense I felt as I see the amount of hate comments directed at me
"Why is she even in gidle, she jus ruining the reputation of the group"
"She cant sing or dance no wonder she always have the least amount of line"
"She btr off not in the group she will better off fit as a background dancer since she always cover by the members"
"Shuhua u have the looks but u really gotta lose weight u like so fat which make ur dancing worse then it already is"
I felt my eyes begin to water. I knew it I'm jus bringing damage to the group. I worthless, ugly, fat .