Broken (Shuhua)

part 9

The members were all in complete silence trying to take in what soyeon had just relay about the whole talk with shuhua.
Yuqi then broke the silence first by exclaiming I dun believe it shuhua is the most happiest and confident lady I know trying to deny the whole situation.
Minnie then say yuqi, we have seen how shuhua been starving herself she isn't the cheerful lady she was before she rarely joke with us...
Soyeon then say let all ensure she eat regularly. And the rest of the members nodded before dispersing to god know where not knowing that the whole situation is worse then they think it is
Soojin on the otherhand immediately went to shuhua room hoping to spend time with her

Soojin pov
Shuhua I say knocking on the door knowing it lock.
After a minute the door unlock and shuhua was smiling innocently hey unnie, what up closing her room door . I they say shuhua can I enter the room I wanna spend some time with u since it been awhile she then gave an unreadable expression before saying sure but give me a minute closing her room door. I was shocked and curious as to what she was hiding hence I called out shuhua,open the room door now . About 2 minute later , she open her room door allowing me to enter

Shuhua pov
Hearing soojin ask whether she can enter the room I was shock as I remember  my blade were jus lying on my night stand I immediately ask her to give me a minute before rushing to keep the blade .
I then proceed to allow her to enter my room and the first thing she ask why are u trying to hide yeh shuhua
Hearing her question I had no idea what to reply hence I try to divert her attention by asking so unnie what are u here for but she sternly reply yeh shuhua dun u try to divert my attention and answer my question
Nothing I reply hoping she will notice I do not want to talk about it. She then say shuhua,answer me right now u not gonna lie ur way thru this u been acting really weird this day pls tell me.

Dont tell her she will think ur worthless and stupid
But she my unnie
Ask her to leave otherwise if she find out she definitely think ur crazy and get u kick out of the group
No she will not she my favorite unnie
Remember who will love such a fuck up person ur just a burden to everyone
Shut up and leave me alone I angrily scream at the voice forgetting about soojin being in my room
Seeing the look of disappointment and sadness on soojin unnie face I can heard my heart breaking more than it already is
Soojin with tear on her face say shuhua, u have change so much I ur unnie I just trying to help u u dunt have to be so rude about it before storming out of the room
I then heard the voice again
See, nobody like u even ur beloved unnie is leaving
Ur fat why would anyone want u
Leave the group, u just dragging them down
I scream at the voice to leave me alone before weeping in lot of pain cutting repeatedly on my thighs thinking of how mess up I am and how disappointed soojin unnie is

Time skip(no one pov)
It was dinner time, soyeon has instruct yuqi to call shuhua out for dinner, shuhua was reluctant but didn't want to further anger her unnie
The table was in complete silence as soojin was seen with an angry expression while shuhua was looking down with complete exhaustion and dead due to losing all the blood and crying.
Yuqi who alway joke around try to break the tension by talking nonsense . The members understand what she was trying to do hence play along with soyeon signalling to soojin that they have to speak aft dinner.
Throughout dinner soojin and shuhua were completely silence taking almost non existent food bite. Shuhua were looking down on her plate looking extremely disgusted just at the sight of the food she had try to excuse her self but soyeon didn't allow her to do so
Just eat and vomit it out later
I heard voice say I immediately starting eating aft making sure I ate a decent amount of food soyeon allow me to leave not knowing that I would puke out all the food.
I head to the toilet before sticking two finger down my throat vomiting everything out before heading to my room drowning in hate as the voice continue to insult me.