Broken (Shuhua)

part 23

A few day ltr
Soojin pov
Ever since tat day of me mentioning to shuhua about hospital she become rather distant and doesnt speak to me  as much. As much as it hurting me ik what  I did must have let her feeling betray and sadly it just gonna get worse from here. Soyeon had just told  me her plan after deciding with the managers and they all feel tat we should bring shuhua and admit her while she still asleep.
Hearing what she say I cant help but become furious and frustrated
No, can't u see how affected she was tat day what more if she wake up to find herself at the hospital
Soojin, that the only way we have now she getting worse as days pass and u can't deny that.
But still..
Rmb 2 days ago we found her on the roof top again u should know tat we can't get lucky every time what if we didn't notice it fast enough or even yst she broke down crying hysterically in the middle of the night the meds is clearly not effective she getting worse and I can't think of any better idea u wun be able to get through her thru talking
But.. Fine but give me 3 days
I say before leaving her to look for shuhua only to find her sleeping soundly .

No one pov
The members were all feeling extremely down knowing tat shuhua is gonna be admitted to the hospital 3 days time but there ain't any better way as of now . Every since shuhua was first diagnose with depression and anxiety the members were fill with worry. Seeing shuhua at the roof of their dorm twice so near death had definitely left the members traumatize and the whole shuhua situation is actually taking a toll of the members health as well. The most affected by all this  is soojin she often had nightmare of shuhua actually successfully jumping of the roof which cause her to woke up in shock in tears .
She has become terrified to sleep afraid tat it will come true . As day pass the members notice how much soojin was sleep deprive however no matter how much the members force her go to sleep she refuse not wanting to leave shuhua side at all time. Hence soyeon has to add sleeping pills to her drink to make her sleep because at the current state of her she look like she can faint any time soon

Fast forward
Soojin has just woken she look at her side and didn't see shuhua. She immediately break down crying thinking tat she gone the members who were in the living room immediately rush into the room.
Unnie, why u crying
As soon as shuhua come in sight of soojin she immediately grab her into a hug refusing to let her go . Shuhua who was puzzle by it just hug soojin back . The members immediately leave the room to give them space.

Shuhua pov
After putting soojin back to sleep which was rather hard
Why is soojin crying did I do smtg wrong I thought to myself
Yes u did . Can't u see how much of a burden u are causing her to be sleep deprive
Noo leave me alone
U will nvr get rid of me I part of u I helping u can't u see tat I telling u the truth of how ppl think of u
No ur no I scream out
See this is why ur so unlike by everyone ur so rude and useless all u do is have breakdown the members are getting tired of u so even if u kill urself no one will care
By now tear were continually flowing down
Maybe ur right.
What do u mean maybe im right I'm always right so just go kill urself now there no point u staying this world ur existence is just bringing pain to other
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry was all I could repeat but I can't deny tat the voice are right I have seen soojin crying silently and it all becus of me I the Shittiest person why was I even born as the I keep repeating I'm sorry I didn't even realize tat the members had enter the room to check on both me and soojin more of soojin cus nobody care about me and honestly I dun deserve their care
Shuhua shuhua SHUHUA
Hearing their scream I snap out of my current state I stare them blankly tear still dripping down my face
Hey what wrong I heard soyeon ask
But still feeling overwhelm by the voice I scream leave me alone Im sorry alright I alr say I am ik everything my fault I'm sorry
Before storming out of the room but before I could leave the room yuqi tgt with the members grab hold of me not letting me go from their embrace I keep screaming for them to let me go but their hold on me just got tighter. After struggling for close to a hour I was completely drain I just lie limp with the members hold still on me.

No one pov
As they sat in silence soojin who has just woken up was completely downfounded and lost but looking at the face of the members she knew what could had possibly taken place . Soojin immediately went to grab shuhua meds and some water. The minute soojin came back the members take the cue to leave . This has definitely give the members another scare causing them to feel extremely drain but aso reminding themselves to nvr let their guard down