Broken (Shuhua)

part 2

Shuhua pov
I open my eyes and was greeted by the sight of miyeon pressing a rubber chicken toy making loud noises into my face
I groan and tell her to leave me alone but she reply by shouting we are gonna be late for our schedule get up. I immediately got up feeling a tiny sting in my stomach. It must be due to gastric from skipping my meals. Well u heard tat right I have decided to go on a diet or else the haters would continue to attack me. Anyway I went to the living room only to see the other members chatting happily eating happily. I smile at the sight and wonder what if I nvr debut in the group and how the group would be a lot better.

Soojin pov
Shuhua ah, come and eat breakfast we need to leave soon. she just crack a small smile and say thanks for the food.
Me and the members exchange look as to how weird she been acting the past few days the usual shuhua would be shouting at the top of her lungs making us laugh.

Shuhua pov
I stuffed the piece of pancakes unwillingly as my plan to skip breakfast fail chewing it Slowly so as to look as if I eating constantly.
Stop eating ur fat u are gonna drag the group down.
I immediately excuse my self to go to the toilet. I had to throw up facing the toilets bowl I started scratching my throat.
Just as I was about to stand up and wash my hand I heard miyeon unnie asking if I was okay. I quickly wash my hand before opening the door replying smiling im fine . Thank goodness I locked the door I need to be more secretive I thought well now I just need to go online to buy some diet pills to speed up my weight loss process it wasn't the most healthiest way but I was at my wit end
For today schedule, sadly include weight taking . As I waited for my turn to approach I was becoming more and more nervous
Soyeon-42kg
Minnie-44kg
Miyeon-43. 5kg
Soojin-43kg
Yuqi-40kg
Lastly shuhua-46kg
As I heard manager oppa announced my weight I felt extremely embarrass and at the same time envious of yuqi well guess I really need to reduce my intake of food the haters were right I was fat .

Time skip(after schedule)

Soyeon unnie decided to treat us dinner for working extremely hard hearing this the members all cheer happily at the thought of eating while I anxiously thought of how to escape dinner what excuse should I give? I ate too much during breakfast at this rate I never gonna lost weight. I approach soyeon unnie cautiously telling her is it ok that I head back to the dorm first I nt feeling well ik this will worry the members but it better than eating uk . Thankfully she allow saying to rest well and if I want anything I just shook my head and ask manager oppa to send me back to the dorm