Broken (Shuhua)

part 10

It been a week and the dorm were back to being lively shuhua had apologies to soojin for being rude and soojin decided to forgive her.
Soyeon would ensure that shuhua is eating regularly not knowing she would puke after. But what the members didn't know was shuhua mental state is getting worse as time pass .the voices in her head would torment her real bad to the point that shuhua was becoming suicidal. At night when the members were sleeping she would often leave the dorm walking mindlessly not caring of her safety and all. Just when she thought it couldn't get worse she receive a phone call from her mom

Shuhua pov
Looking at my phone I began to feel extremely anxious as it not very often my mom would call me.
Hello I say picking up the phone
Shuhua,... Ur dad has pass away hearing this I felt like the world were ending I could not believe it my dad was my everything
Mom pls say ur joking
No I not shuhua
I will try to go over to Taiwan to attend his funeral before hanging up
After hanging up I broke down completely, even the weather was not on my side as it began pouring.
I then head to cube completely drench to ask if I could head back to Taiwan for personal reasons. Initially the response I receive was no as my boss say the group were gonna have a come back soon and I was lacking way too much but I kneel in front of him begging him to let me go for even just a week . My boss eventually allow me but for just 3 days. The moment he allow me to I straight away head to the airport not bothering to pack any clothing .

Time skip (Taiwan)
The moment I land I head straight home, only to start crying looking at how devastated my family were my mom was looking like she about to collapse
Mom, pls rest dad would not like to see u like that
To my surprise mom glare at me and say shut up ur not my daughter where were u do u know that till ur dad very last moment he was calling out for u
Im so sorry , I should have visit u more often I reply crying but mom continue screaming all u care about is ur career right fame is more important than ur family so why are u here
Knowing what I say will anger her further I remain silence but she was too overwhelme that she fainted. I immediately call 911 and mom was escort to the nearest hospital. Please be okay mom I can't lose u too no matter how much u hate me just stay alive pls mom I can't lose u was all I could think about . Thankfully she  was fine and the Doctor say she need sufficient rest. Knowing that mom hate me I decided to avoid her sight so as to reduce the risk of her fainting again.
Day 2
The funeral took place , I try to attend only to find mom glaring at me shouting in my face get out ur not Welcome here ur the reason ur dad here . Not wanting her to suffer I left the room and cry at the corner wishing that everything a lie
I waited till mom head to the room to rest before kneeling in front of the coffin
Dad pls forgive me, pls wake up shuhua need u a lot I can't leave without u mom can't leave Without u pls just wake up I will give my life up for u
Day 3
I woke up only to be slap in the face
I told u ur not Welcome here ur not part of our family leave mom scream
I immediately scramble out of her sight feeling extremely helpless
Knowing that I have to head by to korea didn't make the whole situation easier. Hence I just wrote letter
Mom, I'm so sorry I know u hate me but no matter what I love u and dad. My boss only allow me to leave for 3 days so I need to head back to korea .pls stay healthy and I promise to visit more often. I love u
I then wrote another letter to my sister
Hey unnie, I'm so sorry but I need to head back to korea. Pls take care of mom and stay healthy I can't afford to lose u too. Maybe when mom at a better state I will visit u guys again till then pls help to take care of mom love shuhua
I then pass the letters to my unnie hugging her saying I'm sorry before leaving to the airport