Infinity

Oh no

Everyone is frozen around me. Lana has an angry look on her face which is aimed at Louis. "Girl... girlfriend?" I stammer.
"Yes. Girl...friend." The bitch claps in my face. I feel Lana move closer to me and out of the corner of my eye I see her crossing her arms in front of her. "Do you mind not talking to her like that." Lana says angrily. Eliza backs off slowly and sighs heavily then drops back onto the sofa behind her angrily. Louis looks from Lana to me and makes a silly face. I smile and Eliza rolls her eyes. "Paige do you mind helping me in the kitchen quick?" Lana says while tugging on my arm. I follow her down the dark corridor to the kitchen and she shuts the door behind us. "I'm so sorry. I didn't think he would bring her!" She says apologetically.
"You knew?" I ask and Lana looks down at the floor and nods. I throw my hands up to my head, "I just looked like a complete idiot just then! Fucking gobsmacked not knowing that he has a girlfriend! And this whole time you knew! Lana!" I feel the sting of tears coming to my eyes.
"We thought it was just a phase to fill the void of you leaving! Which was a shock to all of us by the way! Then he carried on seeing her even after we told him you were coming back. And then the fucking cheek of him bringing her here!" She gets more angry as she talks, "I'm gonna go say something." She tries to push past me but I grab her shoulders.
"No! Lana it's fine. Honestly, no need." I say trying to fight back the tears. She sighs but steps back.
"You're obviously upset."
"I'm just shocked that's all. I was expecting it." We both jump as someone knocks on the door and then cracks it open - the wails of a newborn echo into the room. "I think someone is hungry." Louis says poking his head around the doorframe. Lana smiles at me and then walks towards the door.
"Sure. I'm coming." She says. I'm looking out of the small window in the kitchen trying to hold the tears back.
"How was it then?" Louis asks to my back. I close my eyes and try to breathe. I put a smile on my face and turn around. "How was what?" He laughs and rolls his eyes.
"Africa, obviously!"
"Oh. It was amazing. So nice to get out of all the craziness here." I say smiling. He brings his hands up and nods. He has jumper paws from the black and white sweater he's wearing and my butterflies approve. He's cut his beard back again and the fashionable stubble sits complimentary on his face. His sky blue eyes are focused on me almost frowning. "Would have been nice though to give me some warning before ya just left."
"I needed to get away. I needed some time for myself. To think about everything." I can see myself in the reflection on the oven door and my eyes are wide and pleading. He nods, "I get that but how could you do that when..."
"Pudddddding." I hear her voice echo down the corridor, makes me want to throw up.
"Where'd you get that one Lou? A brothel?" I say spitefully.
"Funny." He looks down at the ground. "She's alright actually when you get to know her. Don't think that I'm using her to replace you. No one can replace you, ya know?" He looks up at me now his blue eyes sparkling.
"Louis there you are!" She falls into his arms, "The baby isn't doing anything it's so borring! Can we go home now?" I cross my arms over my chest giving a annoyed look to Louis.
"We can go back to mine yeah." He says.
"Good! Come on then." She says pulling on his arm.
"Wait, I just want to talk to Paige some more." He doesn't even look at her when he says that - his eyes are focused on me. She pouts, "10 minutes sweetie." He says. I make a throwing up motion behind her. Louis smiles.
"It's fine Loubear. Your girlfriends bored, just leave." Her neck pretty much snaps off to look at me.
"What? What did you call him?" Her heels click harshly on the floor until she's in my face.
"I called him the nickname that I've been calling him since before you had your first round of plastic surgery. Which must have been somewhere around the dinosaur period because up close you're way older than I thought." I say squinting up at her. Her mouth drops open and I hear Louis laughing behind her.
"Louis! Did you hear what she said?" She turns around to him then back to me furiously when she realises he's laughing.
"Take the piss out of me all you want shorty. There's one thing I've got and you'll never have." She goes back towards Louis and grabs the front of his shirt pulling him into a an over the top kiss. My heart falls again but I pluck up enough courage to speak.
"Eugh. You think that bothers me? All that bothers me barbie is what will happen when he gets bored of you because you look like a psycho." She lets go of him now and turns to face me her face red with anger - from what I can see seeing as she's plastered in make up.
"You're more bothered about the fact that we are together than you let on. It's only a matter of time before you snap." She clicks right in front of my face. I take a deep breath to speak again but Louis finally steps in between us, "Woah, girls, come on. Enough." He says as she pushes against his hand that he's brought up between us. Eliza blows a bubble with the gum she's been chewing on like a cow eating grass. "We better get going P. Eliza go grab my shoes for me babe." He hits her playfully on the bum as she walks out. She turns around and gives me a sharp look. "We will meet up soon for a catch up?" Louis says to me and I sigh.
"Sure."
"Lana said that you're staying at a hotel - which one?" He asks.
"Actually I'm staying with Harry now." I say and Louis squints his eyes.
"Oh. Right." He nods. "Well I can pop round I guess as I still don't have your number?"
"Oh, yeah sure." I quickly grab my phone out of the pocket on the side of my dress. I still have Louis' number saved in my phone - i always have had his and Harry's. I press call and he pulls his phone out of his jogger pocket. "Huh." He says shocked.
"Now you have it." I say and he nods tapping at his phone then he puts it back in his pocket.
"Okay luv. It was great to see you." He steps closer to me and i breathe in his scent. He leans down and he kisses me lightly on the forehead, i close my eyes savouring the moment. He pauses for a second as i open my eyes and look up at him - his blue eyes searching mine. "LOUIS!" I hear Barbie shout just outside the door. Louis shakes himself and i sigh. "I will see you soon P." He turns and walks out the door.

"How can you not just stare at him all day?" I look down at Baby Josh happily asleep in my arms. Lana giggles.
"It's really hard not to. In fact the first day that we brought him home we just stared at him for 3 hours." She smiles down at him and i watch her. She really does suit motherhood, i look round the room and everyone else is staring at him too. Niall is looking between his newborn son and his wife with so much love in his eyes, Liam and his fiancée Maya are also staring at Baby Josh and then my eyes come to rest on Harry who is staring at me, smiling. I can't help but to smile back, "What are you looking at?" I ask Harry poking my tongue out at him.
"Just you. You look beautiful - holding a baby suits you." He obviously forgot everyone else in the room but is soon reminded when everyone turns to look at him. He laughs awkwardly and i feel my cheeks flush. Lana looks back at me with her eyebrows raised and i try not to look at her because i know it would make me go even more red. "So, are you going to have another one?" Harry asks quickly to change the subject and Lana laughs, "Well not for a while." Just at that point Josh stretches in my arms and everyone starts staring again. His big blue eyes stare up at me and then his bottom lips starts to go and he begins to cry. I look helplessly at Lana and she motions for me to pass him over to her. "He must be hungry." She says just as my stomach rumbles.
"I think I'm in the same boat. I haven't eaten since the flight." I say rubbing my belly.
"Well, I think i need to help you with that. We will swing by Juno's on the way home." Harry smiles at me. My stomach growls again in response. Juno's is my favourite place ever and i have missed not having it for the last 6 months. Their Gorgonzola and mushroom pasta is my favourite. Lana starts to undo her top to feed Josh who is now having a full meltdown and Harry stands up quickly closely followed by Liam. "I think we should go now... cause you're hungry!" Harry says quickly as Niall looks up at him, i roll my eyes.
"I will see you again soon. Take care of this little chunk for me." I kiss the top of Josh's head and smile at Lana, "I think if you get your boob out in front of the boys they're gonna have a breakdown." I chuckle and so does Lana i get up to go and she grabs my arm, i look down at her. She looks past me at Harry who is talking to Niall near the door, then back at me and whispers "Just be careful yeah?" I follow her eyes and look at Harry who catches my eye and smiles, "Hey, you know me! I'm always careful. Plus i don't think I'm gonna go down that rabbit hole again." Lana looks back up at me, "Sure. Just protect yourself yeah?"

I'm stuffing my face with pasta and watching a horror film with Harry when my phone vibrates next to me.
Great to see you tonight. Maybe we should get some lunch together tomorrow? - Louis x
I frown at my phone, the butterflies flapping happily in my belly.
I've got to do some work tomorrow afternoon and get myself settled a bit more, how about an early dinner instead? P x
Harry looks over at me as i tap my reply, he doesn't say anything. I finish typing at look around at the room, it feels weird to be here because the last time i was here, before today, i was planning the renovation as this would have been my home - with my husband. Now, pretty much 2 years on, I'm sat here with Harry, unmarried and just friends. It actually looks great, it's exactly how i had pictured it and all but drew on a piece of paper one night when Harry and i were having one of our famous AM talks. "What do you think?" Harry asks as he watches me look around the room. I place my empty pasta bowl down on the side table next to me and get up off of the sofa as Harry pauses the film, curiously watching me, i pause as i come to the little nook that i had designed especially for myself - it was a place where i could hang my favourite film memorabilia and also you could just put a small desk in there so i could do work but not be too far away from Harry. It was all empty apart from the platinum disk of his 2nd album. I turn to look at Harry, he pulled his hair back into a bulldog clip and he's smiling at me, "You kept this?" His smile grows wider and he nods. He gets up from the sofa, pulling up his cord trousers as he does and walks towards me.
"I figured why not? It's kind of cute and you liked it." He shrugs looking into the nook. I squint at him.
"What else did you keep?" I ask wondering.
"Well to be honest... all of it love." His sea green eyes look down into mine and butterflies dance in my stomach. No Paige... don't do this to yourself, not again. Remember what you came back to do but my head caught up with rest of me too fast as Harry was already kissing me and i was kissing him back.