Infinity

Dreams

I nervously play with my hair as I'm waiting and brush down the front of my dress. I'm in the corner of the pub trying to stay away from other people, then i think what if he can't see me? So i lean forward a bit. No, he's still not here. I'm so nervous and I think about leaving then i see him walk in. He smiles at the barman and looks around for a bit then spots me, he grins and raises his eyebrows at me while rubbing his hands together. "Awright luv." He says when he reaches my table, i stand up and he kisses my cheek, "What do you want to drink?" Then he shakes his head before heading to the bar. I watch him get served by the barman, he gets approached by a guy stood next to him and he takes a picture. Louis is happy and smiling through the whole process. When the guy leaves he leans over the bar talking to the barman, he uses one of his feet to itch the back of his leg which are hidden in his favourite yellow tracksuit bottoms. The white hoodie that he's wearing rides up slightly at the back revealing his skin as he leans forward. The barman hands him two pints and he walks back towards me, he smiles when he sees me staring after him. He places one of the pints in front of me, a cider - i nod to show my approval. "You remembered."
"Of course i did, you were gone for 6 months not years." He laughs.
"Yeah, well a lot can change in 6 months." I say picking up the pint and sipping at it. He nods and takes a sip from his own pint.
"Yeah, well," he mimics me, "You aven't. No matter what, you don't ever change do you P?"
"Would you want me to?" I shrug.
"Not one little bit." he shrugs.
"How's Eliza?" I ask.
"Awright i think. She's been a bit weird." He leans back in his chair, "How's Harry?" He rubs his tongue over his teeth.
"He's good actually." I reply and he nods.
"So you're not bored being dragged to rehearsals." He says cheekily while taking another sip of beer. I run my finger down the side of my glass.
"He's not the one rehearsing actually." I look up into his confused face, "I am."
"You?" He raises his eyebrows.
"Yeah, I've written a song and I'm performing it on Liam's show on Saturday." I take a gulp of my cider out of nerves. Louis looks like he's deciding whether I'm joking or not. "You're performing on his show?"
"Yeah huh." I say taking another sip of cider.
"Wow. Fair P! Ive always said you're talented." He shrugs and takes another sip of his beer, "Well this is a celebration then!" He raises his glass to me. "Well theres actually more." I start to say and Louis lowers his glass, "First, i need to apologise because i left you." He shakes his head at me. "You don't need to luv. You did what was right for you."
"Did i?"
"Well, i hope so."
"Anyway, I'm sorry regardless. When i was in Africa with Ry i had a lot of time to think. Like a lot, a lot. And i realised something which was part of my reason of coming back, also obviously my adorable godson..." Louis looks confused but I continue anyway, "but when i saw you with Eliza i kind of chickened out and everything to a bit fucked again." He's still confused and i shake my head, "What I'm trying to say is..." my phone vibrates on the table, both Louis and I look at it, it's Harry and I'm also late to get back from lunch - i flip it over. "Lou," He's still staring at the phone, "No, I get it." He says quietly.
"What?" Now I'm the one confused.
"I get it, i know what you're going to say."
"You... you do?" I breath a sigh of relief, "Well what are you going to do?"
"Not really a lot i can do." He says angrily. I frown - confused again.
"What... what do you mean? Lou..."
"If you want to be with Harry I'm not exactly going to stop you. It was nice to see ya." He begins to stand up.
"Harry?!" I'm still seated trying to figure out what even has happened, "Why would i want to be with Harry?" He stops moving at looks at me.
"What? Isn't that what you were saying?" My mouth is hanging open and i shake my head, "You love H and you're back together?"
"No. Thats not what i was saying at all." He looks surprised and sits back down slowly, "I guess i should just say this... right?" Louis has a confused face again and i look down at the table before muttering, "I love you." He leans forward in his chair.
"What?" My phone vibrates again on the table and i grab it this time.
"I'm coming H!" I shout down it before standing up. Louis seems to be frozen in his chair and i walk past him heading to the door. My heart is beating so hard i can hear the pounding in my ears. "Wait!" He grabs my hand.
"I've got to go. Just listen to the song." I say getting myself out of his grasp, I'm thankful for my height as i slip between, the suddenly, crowded pub. "Paige!" Louis calls from behind me. I turn around and see him stuck amongst a load of punters.
"Listen to the song." I shout before opening the door and walking out onto the street.