Infinity

Confession

I yawn again, i awoke a few more times during the night because of the same dream and I finally gave up and got up at 6am. I wrote for a little bit for James' new segment and then somewhere around 9am Harry came downstairs ready to start to rehearsals again. Today is the big day - I will be singing, on my own, for the first time ever tonight.
"Paige. Are we keeping you up?" Liam says smirking.
"Sorry, I didn't sleep very well." I say trying to stifle another yawn. Liam looks from me to Harry and Harry shakes his head.
"Well you will have to take a nap before tonight." He says laughing.
"Sure, although I could probably take one now if you carry on talking." I try to say it with a straight face but my lips curl up at the end. Liam blinks with shock and Harry giggles next to me. "Do i really need to be here for you to run through the entire show?" I ask - almost begging to be able to go home. Liam rolls his eyes, "Yes, if you want to know which part you are going to be on for. No one else is complaining!" I look around at the cast, we looks an odd bunch sat around in the middle of a talk show set in a circle; a young performer buzzing to get on the stage and making love heart eyes at Harry, Harry - always professional, eagerly listening and giving Liam his full attention and then a lady who is some sort of royalty, i think, who is on to talk about a charity. She is currently looking at her nails and probably not paying one bit of attention to Liam. I sigh, "Sorry Liam." I look down embarrassed. Harry reaches his hand out to mine and squeezes it in his. I smile up at him. A runner from the show comes running across the set and whispers something in Liam's ear, he nods several times then stands up, "Well, we will have a quick break, theres something i just need to sort out. Meet back in a couple of hours? Thanks guys." My eyes grow wide as i seemingly got my wish. Harry rushes over to Liam before he walks off.
"Everything okay?" Harry asks. Liam says something back to him quietly and i don't catch it, i just see Harry nod then walk back towards me.
"Is he okay?" I ask curiously.
"Yeah, just some sort of costume emergency." He's avoiding my eyes and i squint at him. He shakes off whatever is bugging him and smiles at me, "Shall we get you home for a quick power nap then love?" I laugh as he puts his arm around my shoulders and we head out of the building.

The waves crash violently one more as I'm stood on the beach. Harry is there with me so i try to run to him but every time i do he just gets further away from me. "I will always be here no matter what P." The words are echoing around me but why can't i reach him? Then i hear the accent that makes my heart skip a beat, "Paige, you chose him. Just leave." I feel the tears fall down my face as the lightening flashes over head, Harry points behind me and i turn around. Louis is stood a few meters away from me and i walk towards him. "You chose him. How can i be with someone who doesn't want me."
"Louis." I try to run to him but the beach turns into quick sand and my feet are stuck, "No!" I say struggling in the sand as i see him walk away from me. "I love you. You broke my heart." He runs towards the waves and i scream as the waves engulf him.

I jerk awake, I've got a headache and as I try to move i realise I'm pinned to the bed, I'm cocooned in the duvet and i start to wiggle to get myself out of it. "You okay love?" Harry's smooth voice makes me freeze. I look over and see him led next to me, he's smiling but his eyes look sleepy and he's led on top of the duvet. "I'm stuck." I say struggling.
"Oh, sorry." He laughs. Then rolls over slightly to loosen the duvet, i set myself free.
"Thanks." I kick my legs out a little bit so that i move air around them to cool them down, "Did you nap too?" Harry smiles.
"I must have, i was watching the movie one minute and then woke up to you talking and then you woke up suddenly - made me jump."
"Sorry. I had a bad dream." I say embarrassed.
"What about?" I roll over to look at him and his eyes are full with concern. I look past his head and notice the alarm clock on the side, i jump up quickly. "We've got to be back to Liam in like 15 minutes!" I search around around my bedroom for my hoodie. Harry yawns watching me.
"It's in the bathroom." He says. I nod and run into the bathroom across the hall to grab it. Harry is sitting on the edge of the bed as i walk back in. He looks up at me, "How you feeling?"
"Like I've got two people fighting in my stomach. It just keeps turning over and over again, so nervous! It doesn't help that i still haven't really slept." Harry stands up and pulls me into a hug, i feel safe and warm in his arms but i have to pull away when i feel like crying.
"I didn't mean about the performance. I meant about the dream. What was it about?" He looks down at me his eyes concerned yet again. I shake my head, "Nothing, its fine, we really need to go." I begin to walk out of the room and i hear Harry sigh and then follow me.