Love Drunk 3.0 (Completed)

Chapter 21

Crete 9.30 p.m.
Ethan POV -

The door of the sprinter van opens and I see everyone grab their backpacks and suitcases. I get up and walk towards the door. Taking the 2 steps down and let myself fall out of the vehicle. Just in time I catch myself, by placing my left foot on the concrete. Smooth landing. I close my eyes and breathe in sea air. I feel the wind blow through my hair and hear the sea. Somewhere in the distance I hear waves break against the rocks. I'm tired. If my mind wasn't constantly worrying about y/n, I'm sure I would have gone into hibernation. I look around and see Grayson and Jeff carry my backpack and suitcase. "Sorry.." I mumble while grabbing my suitcase from Jeff. "It's a good thing your head is attached to your body, or else you'd forget it as well." Jeff says smiling. I'm grateful for all these people here with me to look for y/n. But I'm exhausted and so angry, that I can't even reciprocate a smile back. The rough edges are taken off the pain I feel, ever since I took those pills. But I still get hit by spikes of rage. I slowly make my way to the lobby of the hotel and collapse in the seating area, directly across the front desk. My arms hurt from clenching my fists for hours and I slowly open my hands. Consciously stretching each finger. The muscles in my lower arms feel strained and tight. When I look up at the front desk I see Grayson and Ava checking in.

Ava keeps playing with her hair. It catches my eye because she usually doesn't do that. Grayson turns his body towards her as soon as he finishes filling in all the forms. He reaches out his hand and puts a strand of Ava's hair behind her ear. It reminds me of y/n and her always wild looking head of hair. I feel the muscles in my arms tighten and look down to see my fists clenched again. I'm back to slowly opening my hands. Now massaging my left arm with my right hand. And I look over to the other side of the lobby where David, Jeff and Kian are in a heated conversation. All hinged over David's phone and occasionally pointing in a certain direction. Kian walks up to a window and seems to be looking for someone or something, before he walks back to David and Jeff. Their suspicious behaviour makes me feel restless and them looking over at me ignites the rage that has been lingering inside. Are they talking about me? Are they trying to hide something from me? I clench my fists and jump out of the seat I'm in. Leaving my exhaustion behind, I barge up to them. In my peripherals I see Grayson running up to me. When I look over at him I see him yell at me. His eyes wide and his mouth open. His nostrils flared and his hands reaching out for me. But the sound of his voice quieted as though it is being slowly muted. Everything is being muted. All background noises, all people walking though this lobby.
The only people here are the men I locked my eyes on, the men who are keeping something from me. It has something to do with y/n, doesn't it? "Where is she?" I breathe towards David as I feel Grayson's arms closing around me from behind. Holding me back. They all take a step back as I drag Grayson slowly but steadily behind me in their direction! "Ethan! E! Calm down!" I hear Grayson yell in my ear. "You need to calm down, Ethan!" He adds as I see the muscles in his arms contract around my chest. "You can't go to y/n if you can't calm down!" He continues and him mentioning y/n changes my focus. I stop resisting Grayson's touch and stop in my tracks. "Is she here?" I ask with a shaky voice.
Grayson doesn't loosen his grip around my arms and chest. The veins on his arms are now clearly visible, poking through his skin. I feel his head resting on my shoulder blade and his weight pulling me back. "We are looking for Shawn's people right now." Kian says. "She should be here somewhere." He adds. "We're gonna take a look outside, at the terrace." David says and I feel Grayson nod his head, it's rubbing against my back. The three of them immediately walk off. I see Kian looking back at me in worry. Was I really going to attack them again, going to fight them again? Grayson's fists pressing against my chest slowly open. He places the palms of his hands over my heart.
His arms still firmly around me. "Ethan.." he says, his voice now completely calm. "I need you to calm down." He adds as I feel my heart beating out of my chest. I know he can feel it too. "Y/n is.. after everything that happened, probably really scared and hurt.." he continues and my heart hurts like it never hurt before, thinking about my girl. My beautiful girl. "She needs you to be the Ethan who mends her heart, who calms her down." Grayson says and he taps his hand on my chest. "Bring that heartrate down, bro! Breathe, Ethan!".