why is it you?

chapter 20: a bottom killua...?

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Gon's pov:

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He felt so loved. Right at the moment where he was making love to him and right at the moment after. Come to think of it how did he end it again...? He really didn't remember anything!! Which totally wasn't fair!! He wanted to remember everything about his first night!! It wasn't fairrrrrr!!

He had been up for a while pouting at this before killua finally stirred. Ugh he'd token forever!! How long did it take for one man to wake up!! But he was happy that he had woken up at least!! Pfft he wasn't dead!! He began laughing and holding his sides. Killua just stared at him with a confused sleepy face.

"W-what the hell you laughing at stupid...!! What's so funny?!" He kept laughing and smiled at him. No matter what had happened they would always be the best of friends. Now and forever. He hugged killua to him tightly and pushed his weight against him.

Killua started to wobble and lean over falling down on the ground losing his balance. He fell untop of him of course and rubbed his head in pain. But it didn't last long as he soon realised what kinda Situation they were in. Killua on bottom and gon on the top. He liked this situation but obviously killua didn't.

He was blushing and looking up at gon with a "no this isn't right... Why am I on the bottom?" Look. He smiled and leaned down to kiss him. He had the cutest blushy face ever and now he wouldn't be able to stop~he needed to feel what it was like to be violated... His cute tight virgin ass~

Wait... Was it really virgin ass? Was killua actually a virgin? He really didn't know... He'd never even talked about it... He knew that he had some things done to him when he was still an assassin. So was he really? Only one way to find out. He started to kiss him forcing himself on the aroused male. He squirmed underneath him. Wow that was sexy~

"G-gon...!!" He smirked and put his tongue in his mouth. Well more like forced but hey it was still a make out session. He tried to push him off and mumbled something that gon couldn't understand and didn't want to understand right now~his mind was on something else entirely. And that something was killua.

Oh killua how sexy killua was~he couldn't wait to just pound into him silly. But killua looked like he wasn't about to let that happen. Aw poo. He really really wanted to. But killua looked like he really had something to say so he guess he'd let him. Reluctantly but he'd let him. He huffed and looked at him with a glary look.

"I-i was going to tell you something very important before you rudely interrupted me by kissing me..." He pouted that cute little kitten pout that he did the best. Gon grabbed his face and squished his cheeks together. He growled and bit his hand.

Yes that little devil had bitten his hand!! He yowled in pain and shook his hand out glaring at him as it throbbed painfully. That little devil. "What the hell killua!! That really hurt me you jerk!!" He made a mad face at him as he held his hand waiting for an answer.

He just sighed and took his hand in his kissing it. Well... Now it felt a little better... But not by much!! He wouldn't let killua think that he'd won!! He would never win him over!! Gon would win killua over!! That was final. No exceptions. Killua finally gave his opinion on The matter while gon listened patiently.

"Alright baka!! Now that your listing to me finally, and hopefully no more interruptions, I have to tell you a few things!! So listen up!! First off I am by no means a bottom figure!! So don't go treating me like one!! You're the bottom so act like it. And secondly, if you would listen to what I was saying or even remembered what I said, you would know that we were supposed to go somewhere today!! And did we do that? No!!"

He scrunched his nose in thought as a thousand thoughts ran through his mind at that time. Had he forgotten again...? He must have because he didn't even remember where they were supposed to go, let alone what they were supposed to do. He smiled nervously at killua and scratched the back of his neck Sheepishly. "Haha whoops!! Must've slipped my mind!! Sorry about that!!" But killua didn't think the same.

He could tell by the males reaction when he said that. His face feel and he tried to hide it with a yawn. But sorry killua... It was no use he had seen everything. And he wouldn't let killua get away like that. He quickly yanked his arm back and held it above his head. Killua sputtered now being exposed like  a deer in the headlights. He knew it to beacuse now he was trying to squirm and get away to hide himself. But he wouldn't be able to hide, not anymore.

"Killua... You're hurt aren't you? I'm sorry that I did that wrong!! Please don't be hurt... " He got up close to his ear and whispered in it which brought more shivers out of him. He blushed "what did I just say!? I'm not bottom material so stop making me act like it...!!" He could've pushed him away. He would understand. But he didn't. He didn't push him away even though he could've.

Killua was way stronger than him and he knew it to. So why didn't he take advantage of that strength? Why didn't he want to? Gon had a lot of questions and killua wasn't going to be able to talk unless he answered every last one of them. "Alright killua here's the deal. I have a lot of questions that I need answered and your gonna answer them for me ok?" It wasn't really an option. He was telling him.

He shook his head at that and gon got a little mad. Scratch that pissed. "Why can't I ask!? What's so wrong with my question asking!? Are you telling Me that you can but I can't-" He put two fingers over his mouth to shush him. He quickly shoved them off.

"No killua!! I won't shush I want you to answer my questions that I need answered!!" He sighed and slapped his forehead annoyed. Gon personally didn't have a dam clue about what he did wrong. Until killua finally got his words out. Then he realized that he had assumed stuff again. Whoops. It seemed like he always messed up.

"We went over this already gon. If you listen I'll tell you. Be patient remember slow and steady wins the race. Right?" He smiled and grinned a light filled grin. Gon had never seen something so beautiful. And who knows what killua thought about him in his mind... It probably was... Ok(actually y'all know if you've been reading lol) knowing killua though... Probablyyyyyy not that ok. But still!! He would give him the benefit of the doubt even if it killed him.

"Alright baka actually what I was trying to say was that I will answer any question but as long as it's not personal, got it?" His face lit up as killua said thoes words. Really? He would really answer any of his questions as long as it wasn't personal? Well sweet because he needed some answers. Killua sighed and gon decided to go ahead and go on with the questioning. Hm... This was sorta like a q&a kinda thing.

"Ok so first question!! This one had really been on my mind a lot and I couldn't ask it till now. Why do you love me? And why don't you hurt me when I know that you can...?"

Killua's mouth opened as his face was beginning to turn a white-well whiter than he already was. Which was a little strange. Why was he...?

And what was it that he had to say that made him look like that...?