BREAK THE WALL | JENLISA, CHAESOO

Chapter 21

"You can go, Lisa and I would like to talk some more. We have... some issues to sort out." Jennie said to her sister.

"Good, you're finally behaving like adults." Jisoo replied, relieved. "Call the driver when you're finished, he'll pick you up. I'll see you home. Bye Lisa."

Jisoo and Rosé left together in a car because the brunette insisted on giving her friend a lift. Jennie and Lisa decided that the park would be a good place to talk things out, but when they arrived there, neither of them dared to actually start talking about their Sunday morning sex.

"Say something." Jennie finally said, as they were strolling through the alley.

"Why me? As far as I can remember you threw me out, maybe you should start by apologizing?" Lisa countered.

"If you can't understand why I did that then maybe we don't have anything to talk about." the first sign of anger could be heard in Jennie's voice.

"Maybe we don't. Maybe this is all a waste of time." Lisa's face showed irritation.

After a minute of silence during which they didn't even look at each other once, Jennie spoke:

"Lisa, I don't want to argue again-"

"Me neither."

"Then why you're like that-"

"Like what!? You're the one who always... escalates things."

"Me!? You must be kidding! I don't fight with anyone like I do with you so you must be the problem!"

"I don't fight with anyone like that either! It's like you have some fucking innate talent to piss me off!" Lisa exclaimed. "Even when we're not together I can't stop thinking about how annoying you are!"

"You keep thinking about me?" Jennie asked in surprise, her voice no longer angry.

"Yes I do! All the goddamn time! And I already told you, I don't think about you but how annoying you are!" Just when she uttered these words, Lisa realized that those two things might be, in fact, one and the same. She shuddered at that thought. "Anyway, from what I'm seeing, you're probably thinking about me too."

Jennie already opened her mouth to vehemently deny that claim, but eventually bit her lip and nodded.

"It's true." she admitted quietly.

They walked again in silence for awhile and this time Lisa spoke first:

"So what about what happened on Sunday? It didn't mean anything to you?"

"Did it mean something to you?" Jennie responded to the question with a question.

"It was fun, I can admit that."

"For me too."

"Just fun?"

"What else do you want there to be?"

"I don't want anything, I'm just asking!"

"No, you're playing games with me!"

Both girls were determined to never confess that the passionate morning that they experienced together might have been about something more than just sex. Because admitting that feelings were involved would be a sign of weakness and both Jennie and Lisa were way too proud for that.

"Anyway, I'm glad you enjoyed it so much." Lisa said with a provocative smile.

"I swear, if you don't stop being so smug about it-" Jennie couldn't stand how arrogant Lisa's smile seemed to her.

"Come on, at least admit that I was good at it."

"Fine!!! I admit it, you were pretty good! Satisfied!? You arrogant, conceited, pompous-" Jennie's cheeks turned bright red.

"Just pretty good? Have you had better sex before?" Lisa teased and Jennie gave her such an intense death glare that if a look could burn, the blonde would instantly vaporize under the brunette's gaze. "Just like I thought, you haven't." she added and a bold smile appeared on her mouth, making the brunette grit her teeth in powerless anger.

And then something broke inside Jennie, she didn't have the energy to fight anymore, to pretend to be strong and fierce. Lisa watched in surprise how her tense expression softened and tears glistened in her eyes.

"Okay, you win." she said resignedly. "I admit it all, I couldn't control myself when I was with you, okay? I must have lost my mind to do things like that-"

"We all lose our mind a little during passionate sex."

"Lisa, I was practically behaving like some kind of your sex slave. Don't you understand how it makes me feel? How humiliated I am by how I was acting? Begging you, doing everything you told me to, being completely vulnerable, I'm so ashamed of it all because this is a complete opposite of how I really am, how I want to be."

After hearing this, vivid images of their intense sex popped up in Lisa's mind and for a brief moment desire flashed in her eyes as she gazed at the brunette.

"Stop looking at me like that." Jennie uttered faintly, feeling her legs becoming weaker.

"Like what?" Lisa tried to act innocent.

"Please, you were practically licking your lips-"

"No I wasn't! I just..." she fell silent.

"Oh my god, I can't believe you keep thinking about it! Stop that right now, I don't want you imagining me like that!"

"I don't think I can stop." Lisa confessed, it was her turn to let her guard down. "Jennie I think I both hate you and desire you at the same time, I don't know how to explain it, it has never happened to me before-"

"I don't care! Stop picturing us having sex in your head!"

"Oh, come on, it's not like you haven't thought about it too-"

"I haven't!" Jennie almost screamed and Lisa turned to her and looked her straight in the eyes.

"Really?" she asked.

The brunette wasn't able to say anything, as if Lisa's gaze had completely paralyzed her, she just stood motionlessly, only her lips were trembling a little. The blonde took Jennie's chin in her hand to stare into her eyes even more deeply.

"Really?" she whispered, leaning closer.

"Lisa, don't... We shouldn't..." the brunette mumbled, but her gaze went down to Lisa's lips and her own mouth parted invitingly. The blonde's body shivered from desire. She knew that Jennie was right, that their stormy and turbulent relationship wasn't a healthy one and that nothing good would probably come out of it.

That they would keep hurting each other.

But knowing that they shouldn't go into it was exactly why Lisa found it so irresistible. She kept leaning over towards Jennie's lips very slowly, trying to be gentle, but at the first touch of their lips the desire took over her body and mind, shattering the last remains of her self-control.