Sitting in the passenger seat, I felt my phone buzz a few times in my pocket. Mary got disconnected before she can even tell me anything. I look over at Portia, I honestly feel bad for her, I know that once I get into the office people will be hounding us; asking too many questions. I just wanted to hold her again like I did last night, I didn't want her to remember what happened, I didn't want her to revert back to that and breakdown again. Reaching for my phone I see a couple of texts
Meeting at your office once you get here. Core group.
-M (7:35am)
I'll swing by your office at noon
-C (7:37am)
I just bumped into Mary, we're in your office. See you soon
-C (7:41am)
It's just over quarter to eight as we pulled up to the building, Portia looked over at me, she's been quiet the whole ride, we had an unspoken understanding that something was definitely going to happen once we get to the office, there will be question upon questions that will most likely make this into a very bad day. My phone buzzes one final time.
Congrats. Fuck you.
-C.W. (7:48am)
"what is it?" I realize I've been staring at my phone for way too long now. There has been so much pent up negativity and stress inside of me and all I want to do right now is just throw the phone out the window. Letting out a deep breath through my nose I know that would only add fuel to the fire. I re-read the text. What the hell is that supposed to mean? She doesn't talk to me for weeks, she it rubs in my face that she has a a girlfriend, right after threatening to leave the state. I find out that she was openly flirting with people when we were together, and she indirectly threatened to out me. Now she's mad?? Now she goes on and curses me after calling me for no goddamn reason?? All I ever did was for her. All I ever strived for was for her. Now that I was finally putting all my plans into motion, now that everything was going the way they were supposed to, falling into place, she leaves me. I'm confused, but I'm more livid that she has the audacity to act this way after putting me through hell. I honestly don't give a fuck about her reasons anymore. Her reasons were shallow, I admit that there were many people that took their advances towards me, and that there were those that were paired up with me, but never, I honest to goodness never entertained anyone. "hey"
"uhm, nothing it's okay.. shall we go?" she nods and gets out of the car, she walks beside me, handing me the car keys. "you can stay at my office all day, you don't have to wander off.. We're shooting later today, you can watch that and rehearsals if you'd like" she smiles and nods. "I'm sorry I've been acting like this today, I know it's too early but things are just going so wrong... I'm honestly thankful that you're around" she looks at me
"hmm?"
"you make me feel okay.."
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Walking inside, I already knew something was off. The ambiance wasn't the fun and cheery like I was used to. Jeannie said her good mornings but it wasn't as perky as her usual one. I felt like I was walking into a place that I didn't know. I've been working here for about a few weeks but it all suddenly lost its familiarity, I lost all the homely feeling that it had developed. I almost questioned if I entered the wrong building. Reaching my office, I see three people sitting, their eyes went straight to me, then to Portia, then to my hand. Mary beckoned us both in before closing the door behind us.
"have you seen anything?" Mary asked, holding me by my shoulders
"no? nothing" she nods, going to my table I settle down my stuff and beckon for Portia to sit in one of the chairs in front of my table.
"I wanted it to come from us. Cause we've talked about this and I know you trust us" I felt my heart pound, I can vaguely hear it ringing in my ears.
