𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝑜𝓃𝑒 𝑔𝒾𝓇𝓁

c h a p t e r 17

hiraeth -
a homesickness for a home to which you cannot return, a home which maybe never was; the nostalgia, the yearning, the grief for the lost places of your past

i got all my strength i had in me and sat up in the bed. as soon as he closed the door, he ran over to me and hugged me as tight as he could. i didn't really care about the pain shooting throughout my body. all that mattered was him and i.

i was so happy to see him. he meant so much to me right then and there. i was speechless. then i took his hand and he took a seat next to me.

"want to explain what happened?" he asked looking at me. i faintly smiled and nodded. i spent more time explaining what happened to pony. he listened to what i had to say and asked a few questions.

we had at least spent two hours talking about what happened and what they all did while i was gone. he told me how much him and the gang were worried about me.

i told him how i couldn't stop thinking about him, the gang, and how stupid i felt for doing what i did. then i decided to bring up the first time i saw him.

"remember the first time we saw each other at the dingo?" i asked, smiling like a little kid at the memory. "yes, of course i do." he told me smiling and grabbing my hand.

"i remember when my mother and i were paying and i turned around because two-bit had grabbed her attention. then when i saw, gosh, i can't even describe the feeling i felt inside of me." i told him, feeling my cheeks getting red. a small chuckle came out of his mouth. "you want to know how i felt?" he asked me. i nodded my head for him to proceed.

"when you turned around and we made eye contact, i felt like it was just you and me right then and there. i had a good feeling about you and that we were going to be great friends. then after you walked out the door, i watched as you walked to your car. two-bit was snapping his fingers in my face trying to get my attention. then i had mumbled to myself, she is the most beautiful girl i've ever seen. i soon snapped back to reality and everyone asked me what had just happened and i just shook my head. that whole day i was smiling and i couldn't keep you off my mind." he told me as we made direct eye contact as he said the whole thing.

we interlocked fingers and then i looked into his eyes. he looked at me into my eyes. he had beautiful greenish-gray eyes and i didn't want to look away. the nurse walked in, breaking our somewhat 'moment'.

"sorry for interrupting, but visiting hours are over in five minutes sir." she told us. we both nodded our heads and she closed the door gently.

then pony cupped my cheek to make me face him. when i did so, he leaned in and so did i. we kissed. his lips were soft and sweet. it was passionate. we both pulled apart for a breath of air. he smiled and so did i. he slowly got up off the bed, still holding my hand.

he let go and said, "goodnight bella. i will see you tomorrow." he told me. he winked and then walked out of the room. i sat there with a silly smile plastered on my face not knowing what to do.

ponyboy curtis just kissed me. what was this going to mean now? i laid down and put my head in my hands. i couldn't get that dumb smile off of my face.

i tried anything and everything to get myself to fall asleep. i read the magazine on the little table next to my bed, i kept tossing and turning, but nothing would work.

i soon just laid in bed and stared at the white ceiling above me. what just occurred an hour ago kept replaying over and over in my head, until i finally drifted off to sleep.