𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝑜𝓃𝑒 𝑔𝒾𝓇𝓁

c h a p t e r 22

fernweh -
an urge to travel even stronger than wanderlust

he mumbled the last part though i still heard him. he looked up at my eyes and i could feel there was something he wanted to say or something he wanted to tell me.

i looked at him confused and tilted my head the slightest. he closed his eyes, licked his lips, and took a deep breath. he took my hand once again and walked me over to a little log where we could take a seat next to each other.

he looked at me and i looked towards him. "bella, you have made me feel a way i've never felt before. it feels more than just a friendly way at this point. i would love if you could be my girlfriend." he said shyly and i could see his cheeks turning pink.

i cupped his cheek with my hand and as we leaned in, our lips met. only this time, there seemed to be way more sparks. we both pulled away to catch our breath.

"i'd love to." i told him with a small smile. "thank god. i had to think of what to say for at least a week and then i had to recite how i was going to say it. sorry for making it so cliché but, it was honestly a nightmare." he told me as he wiped off the fake sweat on his forehead.

i laughed aloud at his comment. for another two hours, we talked about anything and everything. he told me stories i would have never expected from him and i even told him some of my personal stories that i've never told anyone.

we slowly made our way back to my apartment. he came inside and we talked for a few more minutes. "you got to head back pony, or darry will skin you." i said as i hopped off the stool and made my way to the door.

though he stay seated where he was. i leaned against the wall and crossed my arms over my chest. he slowly hopped off the stool and walked his way over to me.

he placed his hand on the wall and met his lips with mine. it was a quite heated makeout session to say, but he sadly had to leave. a happy sigh left my mouth as i quietly closed the door.

the next month was mainly full of school. since i had missed out on a bunch, i had a lot to catch up on. most days pony would come over and help me out. most of it made sense to me, butthere were still those small parts that i didn't quite understand.

today we were focusing on english. we were reading a book called the red badge of courage.

"okay question 3. what was the red badge of courage in henry's eyes and why did he want one?" pony asked as he pointed at the question with his pencil. i stared at the question acting as if it would tell me the answer right then and there.

i shrugged my shoulders in somewhat annoyance. "this book made no damn sense to me. adding on, i don't like to read about war!" i grunted as i stood up from my stool and walked off to get myself a cup of water.

he chuckled at my little outburst but soon became quiet as he began to think of something. i turned and looked at him confused.

"well think of it like this, a person wants to have friends of course. why do they want to have friends?" he asked as he was now looking at me.

"then they won't be lonely and they will have someone else with them." i responded as i walked my way back over to my seat. he nodded his head at my answer. i looked back down at my paper. then the lightbulb went off in my head.

"in henry's eyes, the red badge of courage was a wound. he wanted one because he felt as if he didn't have one, people wouldn't believe him or believe he was a true man." i said with an exciting tone.

pony threw his arms up in the air and a bright smile appeared on his face. "that's my girl." he said with one of his little cheeky grins. my cheeks immediately flushed pink. i tried hiding them by putting my head down but pony slowly tilted my head up so he could see me.

luckily, we only had a few more questions left to complete and then i was done for the day. sadly pony had to leave when we finished up. i gave him one last kiss and just before i closed the door, he whispered, "i love you."