Hey, Remember Me? (GirlxGirl)

14. Promise?

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Quinn's POV:

"Boon, What are you doing here?" I ask her, as the rain fall on the both of us. "I'm here because you're here Bubs." She replies, I see her not wearing a hoodie or anything, I take mine off as I walk to her, "It's raining and it cold Put this on." I hand it to her, "What? No? that's yours." She pushes my hand back, "Anna take it, I'll be fine take it please, I see you shivering." I push my hand towards her again and she takes it, I take her hand and I walk with her under the tree as it stops the rain from falling on us letting one or two drops land on our heads. "Now why are you here?" I ask her as she shivers, "Because of what Ryan said." she rubs her hands together, "What did you break up with him or something?" I look at her up and down with my hands on my waist, "No I'm giving him one more chance, but that's not the point, I'm not here to talk about him" she wipes the water off her face, "So what are you here to talk about then?" I ask, "Us Quinn, you, me, what he said at lunch crossed the line, him saying that you left once you can leave again that was over the line." she repeats, 

"Yeah I know what he said, and I also said he better watch his back, one wrong thing he does to you it's over I could give less of a fuck about what he says about me" I say to her, getting annoyed with the rain. "You could care less, really you could care less?! So what he said was true then you could just leave again." I hear her voice crack, "Honestly yeah I could just leave again, you and Ryan can go back to being however happy you two were before I came back, you guys can go back to being that perfect couple on campus, post all of those couple pictures and shit. So yes I would leave if it means that you will be happy with someone else, I don't care who it's with as long as you're happy." I tell her feeling my throat sting, why did that hurt so much. Saying that it hurts so much. 

"Quinn, I'm not as happy with him as you think, I can't just go be happy if you leave." she walks closer but I take a step back, "You've survived seven years without me." I tell her and I see tears form, "YEAH EXACTLY SURVIVED I WASN'T LIVING, WHEN YOU LEFT QUINN I WAS SAD, I WAS SAD AND MAD. IT SUCKED SO MUCH GOING FROM SEEING YOUR FAVORITE PERSON EVERYDAY AND BEING ABLE TO SEE THEM SMILE TO JUST NOT HEARING FROM THEM AT ALL TO GETTING LEFT WITH ALL THESE QUESTIONS, ALL I WANTED WAS YOU BACK QUINN. I WISHED FOR MY BIRTHDAYS AND CHRISTMAS' THAT I WOULD GET YOU BACK AGAIN AND EVERY YEAR I WOULD BE DISSAPOINTED.-

YOU SAID YOU WERE GOING TO VISIT AND I WAITED EVERY DAY THAT SUMMER FOR YOU BUT YOU NEVER SHOWED UP. WHEN FIFTH GRADE ROLLED AROUND I WAITED FOR YOU TO WALK THROUGH THE DOOR BUT YOU NEVER DID. I WAITED AND WAITED FOR YOU BUT ALL I GOT WAS NOTHING, I WAS STARTING TO THINK YOU FORGOT ABOUT ME AND EVERYTHING WE DID AND ALL THE MEMORIES WE MADE. THEN YEARS LATER I STARTED TO HAVE THESE CRAZY ASS DREAMS WHERE I'M BACK IN MY FOUTH GRADE BODY LOOKING AT A GIRL IN FRONT OF ME AND NOW I THINK THE DREAM IS HAPPENING QUINN, I THINK IT'S HAPPENING. I WAS CONVINCED FOR YEARS THAT I WAS NOTHING TO YOU. THEN ALL OF THE SUDDEN THE FIRST DAY OF JUNIOR YEAR, I SEE YOU STANDING WITH EVERYONE ELSE AND IT WAS IN THAT MOMENT I FELT THE HAPPINESS I KNOW I HAD ALL THOSE YEAR AGO, LIKE THIS RIGHT HERE CAUGHT IN THIS POLAROID." She pulls the polaroid that I left on my bed and she falls to her knees. "You were everything to me Quinn, everything and when you left, something in me left too. No one made me happy the way you did, not even Ryan, my happiness was temporary it never stayed. All I wanted was my happiness back, I just wanted you back here with me." She cries, I drop to ground with her and I pull her body close to mine. 

"I didn't want to leave, I begged my mom everyday that summer to see you. I couldn't go to bed without crying because I missed you so much and all I wanted was to see you, just to feel you hug me. I struggled going to school because I knew you weren't there. I was alone pretty much everyday, there was no one I could find even remotely like you, there was no one I could connect with the way I connected with you. I wasn't happy either, there wasn't a day where I didn't go through pictures of us, where I didn't let the memories play even through in my head even though they hurt. I need you to understand that you were in my head everyday, every night. I even attempted to play soccer a few times so the next time I see you there was a chance I could beat you but I know that won't ever happen, you're too good. I did the same thing as you I would wish to see you on my birthday, when it was Christmas. I saved every penny I could to get a plane ticket but I never did get enough, it wasn't until halfway through my sophomore year when I decided to go back, I talked to my mom about it and she agreed that we should. I was both nervous and excited to come back, just like you I thought that I meant nothing to you, that you probably forgot about me and moved on finding someone better than me, someone that can make you smile bigger, make your laugh louder, give you what I couldn't." I sit down, leaning my back against the bark of the tree and I pull Anna beside me and her head lays still on my shoulder while wrapping both of her arms around mine clasping our hands together. 

"You were everything to me too Anna, I meant it when I said I intend on staying. Moving was the worse thing that's hurt me. Never in my life have I thought that one day I'd be leaving you and you can bet I'm never leaving again not when my happiness is here." I feel her hand tighten around mine and she lifts her head up and our eyes meet, only a few inches away from each other and I still can't tell if they're blue, green both. "Please don't leave, I can't go through that again, we can't. Promise?" she sniffles and I let out a small smile, "I promise I'm not going to leave, not again." She kisses my cheek and lays her head back on my shoulder. I'm trying to contain my excitement, as confused as my feelings are I don't think we're ready for that conversation yet. I lean my head on hers seeing the rain still pour down as it drips off the leaves, and we just sit there.