I Was Born To Love You

Staring From Afar

I abruptly get up, rubbing my eyes, looking around. I continue to hear the banging and I get up quickly, putting on my black robe and my slippers. I rush to the front door and look through the peephole. I see a beautifully dressed Gabrielle.

"What the hell do you want? It's 12 in the morning!" I yell as soon as I open the door.

She steps back quickly and then rolls her eyes.

"I was bored! Sorry! You usually stay up late!" She responds as she steps inside. "I just came back from the club with Richard, we had a fantastic time!"

I give her a soft smile as we head to the couch, but inside, I knew I wanted what she had. I wasn't jealous of Gabrielle in any way, she was beautiful, smart and confident, but what I was jealous of was her love life.

I am a pretty cold person, but romance just did something for me, and I wanted it dearly. Romance novels and movies could only do so much.

"He also bought me a new pair of earrings! Don't they look amazing?" She says as she moves her hair to the side, showing me her earrings.

"Very. But why aren't you with Richard? You guys were just hanging out." 

"He had to go to his parents house! They wanted to discuss something important with him! And I'm sorry again, about waking you up!"

"It's okay, I was just really sleepy today, it's been a long week." I respond as a yawn. Of course it's been a long week, all I've thought about is Leonardo.

"Well, at least it's finally Friday! Maybe we can do something together after you get off work?" Gabrielle responds as she points to the little clock on the table that sits beside the couch, which reads 12:23.

I can feel a smile placing itself on my face, my eyes widening, happiness placing itself in my body and throwing out the seriousness.

"Oh! Sure!" I respond quickly, Gabrielle knew me well, if I smiled without reason, she'd want to know why or else she'd die trying.

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I wake up to my alarm, the clock reading 8:10. I rush to my room and turn off the alarm, as it was blaring through that clock. I rub my eyes and stretch.

I head back into the living room and see Gabrielle, her body sprawled out on the couch, soft snores rushing out of her body. I put a blanket over her body and head into my room.

I open my drawer and rummage through it, trying to find an outfit that says "I am desperate for your love" but is also me. I roll my eyes and settle for a loose sweater, the color of a deep, dark orange. I put on some black jeans along with it, and some black boots.

I brush my teeth, wash my face and brush my hair, leaving the waves in my hair looking soft. I put on some makeup, concealer, lip balm, mascara, you know, the basics. I grab my bag and everything else needed and rush out the door, into my car, and head to work.

I arrive and park my car in the parking lot, reading the sign and rolling my eyes. Again. As I always do when I arrive at my shitty job. I head inside, wave at Ron, and put my things in the back. I put on my apron and head out.

I turn on my phone and look at the time. 9:03. Hours till I finally see this man. I feel a smile on my face and walk around the bookstore, not annoyed to see books for the first time in my life. I roam throughout the romance section, reading the back of the books, letting my mind roam, wondering which situation could possibly come true with me and Leonardo.

Romance novels were the only type of books I could withstand, some of the stories were so energetic, some were slower, some were heartbreaking, yet they were all beautiful. I giggled at the thoughts of seeing him again.