I Was Born To Love You

Diana

I rush along the aisles, trying to hide within the books, when suddenly, I crash into someone. I fall on the ground, dropping the books I was holding, for the third time today, and I could feel the anger pulsing through me. Personally, I was a real hot-head, and incredibly stubborn, but I tried to show it the least I could, I hated people knowing about how I really was. I was completely comfortable with people knowing the mask I put on everyday, not the part of myself where my mask is off, that is shut off, just for me to know. 

I see a perfectly, manicured hand in front of my face, right when I look up. I take her perfectly soft hand. Her red, shiny nails, reflecting the lights from above us and pull myself up, knowing exactly who it was. 

"I'm so sorry Daisy! I was texting back Richard, I wasn't looking where I was going!" Gabrielle says. 

"No worries Gab, I wasn't either." I respond, picking up the few books that fell on the ground. 

"You seem a little distraught, are you okay?" She asks, worry showing through her face. "You know if anything is going on, you can talk to me, I'm always here for y-" 

"Gabrielle, please. I'm fine. I'm just sleepy." I quickly interrupt her. I hated when people got emotional, it was such a queer feeling to me. I never really showed emotions, and when people tried to pull me in, down the well of emotions along with them, I hated it. Gabrielle was one of the few people who actually understood, which was one of the reason I actually liked her. 

She nodded, and we walked for a while together, through the aisles, chatting lowly, so we wouldn't get caught with out boss. After a few minutes together, I told her I was going to the restroom, and that I'd be back soon. I rush along and try to find the man, along with Melanie. Well, I couldn't care less about the little girl, but I was pretty sure they'd be together, so as long as I knew where she was, I'd see him. 

I abruptly stop behind the romance section. I peek from behind the big shelf and see the man and Melanie in the kids section. She seems to be reading the newest Diary Of A Wimpy Kid book, and he seems to be reading some other book. I look closely, to find he's reading Jane Eyre. I can feel a smile grow on my face. I had a soft spot for romance novels. I hate the fact that I did, but I did. I kept it to myself, no one knew, as I've acknowledged before,  I don't let people know much about me. Feelings were not for me, but romance novels were a completely different story. Gabrielle knew, but only because she caught me reading Emma when I was at my house, and she came in without my knowing. 

I see them both get up, and I can't hear them, stupid inside voices rule in libraries is what I have to blame that to, but I can see Melanie grab the book, and put her hands together, in a pleading way. I rush down the aisle, and back to the checkout area. 

"Ron! Why don't you go and take your 15?" I ask Ron, a tall dude with orange/red hair that was as bright as the sun, I swear. 

"What? No, I'm okay Daisy-" He begins to respond, but before he can even finish I push him away, and into the hallway, and I rush back out and run to the checkout area. I breathe in and out, trying to act as nonchalant as I can, and pretend to look bored; well as much as I could anyways. I hear footsteps approach and I try my hardest to dig my smile deep down, into the depths of my soul. 

"Excuse me, Miss?" He asks.

So this is what it feels like to be an ice cube in the middle of the summer. 

I look up and smile. "Hello, and it's Daisy." I respond.

"Daisy, we'd like to purchase this book!" Melanie says as she lifts the book onto the counter, being only about a foot taller than the counter. I could feel my eyes struggling not to roll themselves into oblivion. 

"Of course darling!" I respond sarcastically, but I knew they couldn't tell, as I could still see smiles on their faces. 

I scan the book, as I read the price of $13.23 out-loud to them. The man pulls out his wallet and gives me a $20 as he chats with the little girl. The smile on his face seems so real, and he seems truly happy, and I wish it were me instead of her he was smiling at. He doesn't even turn to look at me as he gives me the $20. I grab it and give him the change, feeling angrier and angrier as the seconds pass.

He mutters a quick thank you and grabs the hand of the little girl, heading off. After a few steps she stops abruptly and tugs on his hand. He bends down and they seem to be talking, and then suddenly she points my way, and I see them walking back. Now don't get me wrong, I didn't like the little thing, but hey, if she's the reason she got the man to come back and talk to me, I guess I could go a little easier on her. 

"I'm sorry, I forgot to ask you something." He says as he arrives at the counter. 

I could feel my insides dance. Now maybe I was hoping for a little too much, but I couldn't stop imagining about him asking me out on a date. I could feel the happiness arise throughout myself. 

"And that is?" I ask, my eyes pooling with hope. 

"Do you guys have a book club for little kids? Melanie would love to join one." He says as he looks down at her with a smile, and she looks up at me, looking incredibly happy. 

And now I want to step on her. 

"Yes we do!" I respond, and bend down, grabbing a paper for the kids book club and a pen. 

"Here you go! The club is every Friday from 3:00-4:00 and it's only kids from 8-14! The rest of the information is on the paper!" I say as I put the paper and pen in front of him, and he takes the pen and begins signing. 

"Thank you! I guess I'll see you Friday." He says as he hands me the paper, and begins walking, as he takes Melanie's hand. 

"Goodbye!" I hear Melanie say, and I look up from the paper, and give her a small wave, and a soft smile, that was incredibly fake. 

"Goodbye Diana." He says along with her. 

My hand drops and so does my smile, sure they were fake but how could he forget my name? I had just told him minutes ago! It didn't matter, sooner or later, he'd remember it, screaming it even!

I look down at the paper, going across every bit of information he wrote down. I knew his number, his address, and most importantly, his name. 

Leonardo De La Peña. 

I think my entire body heated up just by reading his name. Just his name affected me! 

I see Melanie De La Peña and roll my eyes. Of course he had a daughter! I was hoping she was a cousin, or a niece or something! 

I throw the paper in the book club stack, so that my boss could go over the paper and formally accept her into the club, and I head to the back, and sit down to take my 15. I didn't even want to go back and talk to Gabrielle anymore! I was incredibly pissed, although a little happy because I would definitely be seeing him more. 

But I don't know if I wanted to continue falling for a motherfucker who called me Diana. 

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