I Was Born To Love You

Jealousy

I look up from my post behind the counter, to see Leonardo, Melanie and a bunch of other families walking out of the bookstore. I see Melanie give me a wave and a smile, and I send one right back at her. A fake one, but she wouldn't even know.

I work for a few more minutes behind the counter, sad that I wouldn't be able to see the man of my dreams for the rest of today, but I had to remember, I'd see him again, and it would feel like pure bliss.

After about 15 minutes I finally head to the back, taking off my apron and grabbing my bag, making sure everything I need is in my bag. I walk out and head out the bookstore, giving a wave to Ron and Greg, leaving the front doors.

As soon as I step outside the horrible bookstore I stand still. I breathe in the air and sigh in satisfaction, feeling great that I'm out of that place. I begin to walk in the parking lot, rummaging through my cheap ass bag that I bought from a random lady, trying to find my keys. Then all of a sudden, I hear giggles and talking, and I look up abruptly, keys in hand.

I see Melanie and the little boy talking once again, but past them, I can see Leonardo and this woman talking. She was tall, wearing heels, long red hair, in work clothes, a black skirt and a white blouse. I could feel the jealousy radiating from my body.  He wasn't mine, yet, but still! Didn't he feel what I felt? He must've had to! That hand touch, nothing was exchanged except pure electricity.

I couldn't stop myself. My mind was yelling at me, telling me to stop, stop walking towards them, go to your car, save yourself the trouble. But my body wasn't listening, it was in full control, I walked closer and closer to them, until all of a sudden I felt a little hand grab my hand, and I suddenly looked down, being pulled out of my trance, the red that had just clouded my vision, was washed away with all the other colors coming back.

"Hi! You're the nice lady from the bookstore!" Melanie says and gives me a big bright smile, and I smile back. Although all I wanted was to throw her hand off of mine, and then rush back inside the bookstore and wash my hands five times, then putting on a shit load of hand sanitizer.

"Hello darling, how are you doing?" I ask, smiling, almost painfully to be honest.

"I'm good! Look at my friend, his name is Harry!" She says, and pulls him closer to us. I look to the boy and give him a soft smile.

"Hi! Melanie has told me you're very nice, and you're very pretty." He finishes and they both look up at me with smiles. People are always talking about Heaven on Earth, but at this moment, it felt like Hell. I couldn't believe I was talking to a pair of annoying, selfish, toxic kids. I wanted nothing more then to push them out of my sight and run for the hills.

Suddenly I feel a presence behind me and I turn around, the woman and Leonardo are standing a few feet from behind me, both of them smiling at me with the sight of their kids.

"Hello again." Leonardo says as he approaches closer to me.

"Hello, I'm May, the mother of Harry, nice to meet you." The lady next to Leonardo chirps out. I swear, people can never tell when they should keep their mouths shut, couldn't you see I was staring into the addicting eyes of my future husband?

"Hello, I'm Daisy, nice to meet you too." I respond as I shake her hand. And we all exchange smiles.

"I was just heading home, and I wanted to say a quick hello to Melanie, the little sweetheart." I say quickly, the first lie that came to my head. And Leonardo smiles, but I knew it wasn't for me, he looked at Melanie as it appeared of his face, and I could feel my heart shattering, but I could feel a little version of me in my body, rushing to the broken pieces of my heart, picking them up, and placing them back together, I had to hold it all in.

"Well, we were just leaving too, it's getting late, and Melanie is getting hungry." Leonardo responds, and May nods in agreement.

"Well, I suppose I'll see you guys sometime around next week, goodbye Leonardo." I say and I shake his hand, letting the electricity rush through my body once again, giving me strength to repair the pieces of my heart that little me couldn't hold together.

"Goodbye May." I respond as I give her hand a quick shake, remembering to sanitize my hands as soon as I got in the car.

"Goodbye sweethearts." I say to the kids and shake their hands quickly, and I rush along the cars, finally locking eyes with my shitty car and I rush inside. I sit in my car and see Leonardo and Melanie go inside their car, and May and Harry enter a separate one. Once I see both cars leave the parking lot and into the road, I start screaming and hitting the steering wheel. I hit it over and over with my hands, I even banged my head on it a couple of times.

Even if that woman wasn't a threat, I felt like she was. And what I wanted, was what had to be done. I didn't want her to be around Leonardo. I wanted her to stay clear of him.

His attention was only deserved for me. Nobody else deserved his love, his lust, his care, his feelings, his attention. But I did. I was an innocent soul, the thoughts I had could easily be covered up. I could make him feel like I was planting flowers in his veins, I could make him feel like I was an angel, I could make him feel like I was his only one, I could show him the love that would form between us, the love that would leave him on his knees, praising me, the love lingering within him, energy rushing through his entire soul, our souls connecting, becoming one.

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-Kat