𝐄𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐘 ☞ 𝐥𝐞𝐯𝐢 𝐱 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

twenty two

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Where am I?

It's warm here.

It's comforting.

Was this is it?

This... this is it.

This is what I've been looking for.

My whole life, this was it.

It wasn't beyond the gate, it wasn't in the Survey Corps, it was here.

What I've been searching so hard for, it was this.

Was I... dead?

"Y/N!"

Levi?

Is that you?

"Y/N!" he pleads. "Please, wake up!"

I was... asleep?

No. 

I don't feel like this when I sleep.

Levi wouldn't be calling out to me if I was asleep.

I was..

Dying.

"Please.." his voice was breaking, and I knew he was crying.

Levi? Crying?

"I love you too, Y/N." he whispers.

He loves me back.

Yet I was hurting him.

I could hear him, and all I had to do was wake up.

But this was it.

My entire life goal, it was this.

Everything was leading to this.

If I return now, chances are I wouldn't find this place again.

But if I stayed here too long, I wouldn't be able to go back.

Was it worth it?

Would I return to a life of pain, nightmares and constant terror, all to comfort the man I love, the same man who would lay down his life for me, who cared about me and loved me more than I did myself?

Or stay here, where I could be at peace? I could be happy here. No nightmares, no pain.

"Y/N..." Levi whispered. "I know how selfish I'm being, knowing all the shit you've been through."

Oh Levi...

"You deserve nothing more than to be at peace," He says, voice breaking. "But I need you. I need you more than anything in the world."

The sound of his voice cracking broke my heart.

But my mind was made up.

Levi, please, don't cry over me.

"I love you so much, Y/N. I don't know how I would be able to go on without you here with me.."

Don't cry over me, Levi.

I'm not worth it.

You were right.

I am a coward.

I don't have the strength nor the tolerance to return to such a cruel world.

"No! No!" Levi shouted. "No stop it! She's going to come back! I know it!"

I love you so much, Levi.

"Clear!" one of the Nurses shouted.

Please, move on.

Find someone that can make you happy.

Don't distance yourself due to the fear of loosing more people.

"Y/N! Wake up, please!" He pleaded.

Thank you, Levi.

Thank you for reminding me what love was like.

"She's going to wake up, I know it!" he shouted at someone.

Thank you for saving me.

Thank you for holding me and caressing me when I was hurting.

"Y/N!" Mikasa cried. "Y/N, please, come back!"

Thank you, Mikasa.

Thank you for caring for me.

Thank you for being the mother that I had grown up without.

I love you guys so much.

But I can't come back to you.

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