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Im okay

Louis POV 11th grade

I haven't heard from Harry, it's been a year. I've texted him and all he does is leave me on read, and never calls or answers my calls. I've given up. Ever since Harry left I was made fun of at school for the way I dressed, I was called a fag, a twink, worthless, I should kill myself just like my father did, and that Harry left me because I was a nobody. I try not to let their words hurt me but what if they are right? Maybe Harry did leave me because I was a nobody, but what hurts most is I trusted him not to leave me heartbroken. I mean I get that everyone will get dumped and nobody will stay with their first love but I swear it was different with him I could always feel the love we shared and the tingling sensation and butterflies I got when he touched me. But he left and now the thought of him makes my blood boil and my heart break a little bit more. My mum said after this year I can leave Potter High and transfer to Eagle High for my senior year. I walk into school and mentally prepare myself for the beatings and harsh words. "Hey twink" Nick said. "Hi Dick" I reply sassily which I instantly regret when I'm thrown against the locker. "Look fag just because you like it up the arse and like dick in your mouth doesn't mean I do so therefore you are now going to get it" Nick said with an evil grin. Yep I'm about to get my arse beat. I hear a crack in my ribs and that's when Nick knew he fucked up and I knew I was fucked up. I was rushed to the hospital to find out I had in fact broken a rib and that's where my mum drew the line and I was taken out of school. When I went to the doctors they found my scars from cutting, I didn't cut because I wanted to die I mean I couldn't do that to my mum or sisters after dad did it. I only cut to feel in control and to feel the blood run down my wrist, it also makes the voices get quieter. I was somehow lucky enough to make the doctors and my family believe they were scars from the beatings. I leave the hospital and go home. I get to take a couple weeks off from school and my mum is enrolling me into Eagle high where I will now be finishing the school year. I decided to scroll through Instagram and that's when I saw it, an article saying "Famous teen singer Harry Edward Styles comes out about relationship with singer Zayn Malik". My heart breaks, I feel more pain then ever before. The voices come back and are louder then ever, I make way upstairs and cut. This is where it ends, no more weak Louis. During the couple of weeks I make some changes to my wardrobe and my image. I bought a bunch of black jeans, band tees, any black shirts, plain black Vans, and really anything that didn't scream feminine. I also got my lip and eyebrow pierced and a couple tattoos, I plan on getting more soon. Oh I also tried a cigarette and now I love the way it calms my nerves. My mum knows about the cigarettes but doesn't approve, she definitely doesn't know about the joint in my room or the blades under my sink. I hate to say that I have changed because of one person, a person I loved. I've also decided to hide the fact that I was gay because that's part of why I got bullied and beat in the first place.
*A couple weeks later and first day at new school.* (Louis still in 11th grade)
I'm nervous to go back to school. What if I get bullied again and I changed myself for no reason? I need to calm my nerves so I open my room window and light a cigarette. The cigarette calms my nerves a little bit and I close my window and febreeze the room. I change into a pair of black ripped jeans and an AC/DC tee. I slip on my vans and grab my backpack. "Bye mum love you have a great day" I yell then I'm out the door. I make my way to my car and see I have a message, it's from my sister Lottie.

Lottie: Hey Lou!! Just wanted to tell
You to have a great day and
I love you! :)

You: Thanks Lotts. Love you too ❤️

With that I close my phone and make my way toward the school. When I reach the school I look at the time and see I have 15 minutes until I need to go in so I pull a cigarette out and smoke for the rest of the time. "Hey you new here?" A girl with auburn hair, tattoos everywhere, lip and eyebrow piercings, and black jeans with a black halter top and a leather jacket says. "Uh yeah." I reply coldly. "Well I'll show you around" She says with the same tone. "Okay yeah whatever" I say back. "My names Jasmine but everyone calls me Jaz." she says with a small smile and a little shrug. "Okay. My names Louis but everyone calls me Louis." I say with a chuckle. "Well you seem like a person I'll get along with." she says and hooks her arm with mine.

💚Okay so what are we thinking? Are you liking the story? These chapters have just been fillers and we will get to the drama soon. I'm trying to make the chapters long but I also want to have a good chunk of chapters so please bare with me. Anyways enjoy and please vote and comment💙