Another life

Miles Apart

"Harry's back." I lean against her. I say it to break the silence that builds up between us. I hate how thick the wall is that holds us apart. "I don't know what to do. I can't go back to my old school. They all hate me now even more. And I can't look at him without remembering all of his broken promises. I mean it was always tomorrow and forever with him until it wasn't. And the last time I saw him-" I pause not knowing if I want to explain the dread I feel remembering that day. "I didn't know it would be the last. And all I wanted today was to feel him wrapped around me again. I mean-" I think about how he's always in my head when I'm fucking Jaz. "he's always in my head. Even after what he's done."
I don't know why I expected a response. I should've just fucking talked to Lottie on the phone. But she would worry and bombard me. On the other hand Fizzy is six feet under and somehow never replies. But I wish she would.
I open my phone for the millionth time and dial her number. "Hello? Hello? I can't hear you? Ope! Now I can. How are you? That's good! Haha! Got you. Leave a message at the-" She gets cut off by the beep. She made it forever ago as a joke message. But sometimes I reply. I keep calling until we finish a full conversation or just to hear her laugh over the line thinking her voicemail is clever.
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I jump the fence to get back in the school so the office just thinks I have an upset stomach. I walk around a bit until I make my way to the door of Jaz's class leaning against it. Harold's class and mine is about one door down. I know he doesn't want to talk to me anyways so I just make a note not to look at him.
The bell rings and as always Jaz is the first one out. Desperate for math to be over. Or really any subject. That's her and I's thing, hating shit. "Ditching were you?" She asks me with the raise of an eyebrow.
She gets up close to my face grabbing onto my neck. "You're funny." I tell her as I place my lips on hers. She giggles a bit against me.
I think everyone thinks that Jaz and I are dating. We never talk to anyone. We're pretty popular because her and I are both good looking. But we just don't expand our field. I look at Harry who's staring at Jaz and I from the corner of my eye. He catches mine lowering me into a flashback.
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I'm laying with my head on Harry's chest. I listen to his heartbeat and let the sound wrap around me feeling safer than ever. "If you could have one thing in the world what would it be?" I ask Harry slowly.
He moves his head down and rests a kiss against my forehead. "You baby." He says it slowly and confidently.
"No Harry. I mean really. A million dollars, fame, anything." I say with a sigh to him. "Or even that music carreer I know you're going to get." I say shaking my head.
"I want you, above anything else. Only me and you. This moment and forever." He tells me it surely, like he knows we'll be a constant in the future. The thought makes my heart swarm. Him and only him forever seems like a dream most of the time. But right now it seems real, and I love it.
"You and me huh?" I ask him with a sweet laugh. "I'm thinking we could get a big house," I start. "With two little mini us'es. One would be from your surrogate one from mine. But they would both be ours." I tell Harry.
He smiles against my head, I feel his lips move against me as he talks. "And we could get a little puppy. Not a little one, maybe a golden retriever. It would smile when the kids would pet it," Harry continues.
I don't let him finish. I lift up my head to place my lips on his. "I love you." I say to him into the kiss. A grin is spread among my face.
"I love you too." He tells me happily. "Always and forever babe." He turns me around slowly and I straddle on top of him letting the kiss deepen.
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Turns out he wanted something more. He could've had both too. I break my eyes away from Harry's. "He used to go to your old school right? Do you two have beef or something?" Jaz asks me.
I sling my arm around her and get close enough so I know Harry can hear me. "Yeah I used to know him." I say the first part lovingly. "He's a selfish dick that only gives a fuck about himself. "Whole reason I moved schools in first place." I say with a shrug.
I want to tell Harry. I want to tell him how they beat me to nothing. How they broke me to even more pieces after he left. About the hidden scars on me that are all his fault. I want to tell him how I got them. And how all of them lead back to him. How all of them are his fault.
But another part of me, the smallest, the weakest, the darkest part of me. It wants to feel him on me again. The feeling I had when his hand was around mine, when he would kiss me, when- and that's when that part fails. Overruled by the angry part of me.
"What'd he do anyways?" Jaz asks me curiously. I can't tell Jaz about our relationship. Or how he fucked me over in every way possible. Because here, here I have to like girls.
I glance at Harry knowing he'll hear me. I see the hurt in his eyes from what I said. "He turned himself into a fucking stranger." When I say it his eyes widen. I watch as they break in front of me. Jaz feels it between us. The mood lower.
"Let's skip lunch." Jaz says to me with an evil grin. "That way you can fuck me like you mean it." Her voice is low when she says it but I know Harry heard it.
I look over at Harry who's stopped in his tracks looking at the two of us. I pretend like I haven't noticed. I grab onto her waist and pin her against the wall. Letting our lips connect and her tongue roam my mouth. I let it continue longer than normal knowing that Harry's still watching.
Knowing he thinks he's nothing to me other than an asshole. Let him know what I'm about to do to Jaz. Let him know that whatever there once was is not anymore.

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