ALLURING FIRES (COMPLETED)

Chapter 21

"What are you doing here?" Tulala kong tanong matapos ko syang higitin papunta sa garden area ng mansion.

He stared blankly, "I'm here to stop you from running away again." his serious tone made me quake and my tummy rumbles in riot with his presense. "Stop being immature, Zenica."

I immediately shook my head and looked at him unbelievably, "I'm not being immature, Chaucer. You are." I strongly gasp for air before turning to him, "You followed me here to cause trouble in my mind again, I wanted space from you!" my voice raises in the cold and silent ambiance, I couldn't care more.

"Why?" His brown eyes turn to look weak, he raises his hand to reach mine as I felt my heart grasping, "Why do you keep pushing me away, Zen.." napayuko ito at napahigpit ang hawak saking kamay, "Please.. tell me whats wrong with me.." his voice is cracking that made my chest skipped, I couldn't breath properly as I looked into his eyes.

"Its not you.." pinisil ko ang kanyang kamay, "Its just that.." I bit my lowerlip, "It's happening to fast... I.. I just broke up with your cousin.." I looked away when his shining eyes locked on mine, "I.. I dont want to mix my feelings for him with my feelings with yours ..."  Sighing heavily, I ease and let my hands away to his, "It's so complicated for both of us, I feel like... Im still hoping for Tuecer.."

He cleared his throat before shooking his head slowly, I turned to look at the lights wrapped on flowers and fucosed my stares there instead to his, "I can't be his match.." his voice's fading and a tone for sarcasm, "yea, sorry for coming here." I don't want to look at his face, I dont want to see him in pain, but I can still hear the pain from his raucous voice that made me fused.

"I dont want to hurt you Chaucer, believe me." I almost whisper staring at the space blankly, "I'm just confused, still confuse. He's your cousin," I gripped my fist in intense I felt, "I just cant turn to you that easily."

I heard him laugh a bit, and bitterly, "That's your excuse for rejecting me again." Dahan-dahan akong umiling, I want to stop him from jumping any conclusions but I can't find my voice anymore, my throat felt dry that I couldn't speak and oppose him, "I heard enough." His acrid tone made me feel sorry but I couldn't stop him from turning his back and walking away from my sight.

"You came all the way from Philippines to France, come on, I have vacant rooms, just spend the night here." I heard Tita Eliecie's voice from the hall way to living room, probably talking to Chaucer who's about to leave.

I paused, I dont want to see him and I don't want him to see me either, I hurt him enough. Napatingin ako saking gilid ng tumigil rin si Suga, his eyes is questioning me.

"No thank you Ms, I booked a hotel nearby, I want to roam around Paris too." I heard his fake voice trying to lift the mood, napabuntong-hininga ako at binalingan si Suga.

"Quoi?" I pucker my forehead before stepping on the way to liquor counter, he followed me while I look for alcohols in the crystal fridge cabinet.

"Who's that? He's not Tuecer Rhodes." Kumuha sya ng baso at nilagay sa barstool, pareho kaming naupo habang nagsasalin ako ng whiskey. "I'm not that talkative, I just wanna know what's happening."

I sip and crunch my face because of the annoying savor from the drink,  "He's Tuecer's cousin my ex-boyfriend five years ago we met again this year...and.." I shrugged while weakly spacing out, muli akong uminom at napabuntong-hininga, nawawalan na ako ng gana sa lahat.

"I get it, that Chaucer is one of the reason on your breakup." He slam his right palm to his left palm like he just found something interesting, I totally nodded because he's right. Tuecer and I split partially because of him, probably if Tuecer didn't found hickies in my skin and if I didn't get a little attach with Chaucer, I don't think we'll fight and end... I'm not exactly blaming him, I just can't think of anyone to blame, I'm losing my mind because of this pressure that I needed someone to impute for my madness.