Girl With Fake Smile

Chapter 12

I feel my whole body numb after I cried a lot.  I can now understand  how much my mother had endure pain during all those days all by her. I knew why my mom cried non stopping whenever I ask her about my father.

I search again inside bag if there are more.  There Is nothing more. I rush out of my room  searching for my mom. There I saw my mom chatting with her friends in WeChat. As soon as I saw her, I hug her tight still crying.

I didn't get to notice how my brother and sisters were acting but I can feel my mom was shock as well as worry with my sudden act through my blurry eyes.  My mom  break hug holding my shoulder letting me to look into her.

She ask, " what happen my child? Please tell me."

I still cried falling countless tears from my eyes. I hand her  father's note.  As soon as she read that note,  tears fall from her eyes. I can see all other three( my sisters and brother) looking at two of us in confuse.

I hug my mom tightly again. My eldest sis took paper from my mom and they all start reading. They all start to cry. My two sisters fall on their knee and beg me for forgiveness. But I'm still not ready to forgive them easily.

Both sisters had hurt me more than enough.  while both of my sisters are begging for my forgiveness, my mother froze there in confusion.

" what did u done to her? Why are you two begging for forgiveness? Is there something that I didn't know?" She ask with  confusion. My two sister explain her everything.

"  Only Samten is my child. You all, get out my house, soon. Please get out!" she shout in frustration.

They all beg for forgiveness from both me and my mom but my mother instruct them to leave soon.

" Don't call me mother from now on. I'm not your mother any more, nor you three are my child. So get out!" She shout again.

I pad her shoulder to calm down but she is still angry. I  have never seen her angry that much before. It's my first time. I was afraid by how angry she is. So I didn't speak a single words.

" Please forgive me. I have become more of enemies than mother to you. I don't know you were treated like that by them. I'm really sorry" she said still crying.

I hate when I saw her crying.

 " I'm okie now. Don't cry and don't worry. You are best and kindest person who cherish my life. I love you" I said  hugging her again.  

I break her hug and than  hold her hands.  I see her palm pressing hard on chest. I asked her what happen but she didn't speak a single word. Soon I call ambulance and we reach at hospital.

I wait outside when she is doing check up. I pray not to take her away from me. She is only one that I have. I run here and there in worried. I feel like I'm going to mad. Many strange thoughts rush into my mind. After some time, female doctor came towards me.

From the way she look at me, I knew something was wrong.  I don't even dare to look at her, I held from her white coat asking what's wrong with my mom.  Tell me that my mom is alright. Please, please, I beg you. I said crying.  she look at me with pity and feeling of sympathy towards me.

She say, I'm really sorry" with this she leave me.

 I was froze is same spot. I sit besides my mom. She is  lying there on bed looking into my eyes. I hug her still crying.

 " I'm really sorry again  Samten . I don't think I can survive" she said her last word before she sleep permanently.

I cried all alone. No one was there to console me. my dream came true. Why such dream had to come true and let me suffer, I thought to myself.  I have no idea how I will survive in this world without mom. She was everything for me and she is the only one who is there whenever I need.

I knew why she never get mad at me. Why she always keep smiling. How foolish I'm to know just now only. She has been suffering from heart disease a year ago. I saw she placing  her palm  around chest but I never bother to ask her what's wrong.  

I was regretting to not caring her when she was alive. I wish her to live comfort life but, before I got job she was no more with me.  I don't have anyone other than Namgay . I share to him about all those things that had happened to me. For some reason I feel comfort when I'm with him.

I was happy that he was there for me, when I need someone. My neighbors help  to do all necessary rituals for my mom. Almost three months pass since my mom  leave this world. Still I  cried every night.

I can see her things everywhere. Whenever I saw her things, I can't stop sheding my tears.  As always, Namgay stay by my side whenever I need. Finally, I though of accepting his proposal.

If Dorji love me, he would have done anything to get my love. But he didn't even approach me. So I understand my own feelings now. I'm in love with Namgay . I made my mind to cherish my whole life with him. Tomorrow is my birthday, which I will be turn into 18.

So I wrap burey gho, my mom had weave for my future husband . I again shed tears seeing gho, remembering that once upon a time she would have touch this. I could have known from the way she keep everything ready even  it wasn't time. She even have save me enough money without spending.

I feel really sorry that my mother would wear torn clothes. She have wear torn clothes so that she can save money for me. I feel bad about that which made me to cry more. I wipe my tears away and start wrapping it for Namgay . I was feeling excited as well as nervous and can't wait wishing time to travel faster.

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