Broken Pasts (Loki x OC)

ch13

"This is all your fault! Why did you have to push me about Epin!" Loki yells to his brother and friends the second Epin teleported away. He knew he blew it with her and now he was mad.

"So you are admitting you at least like her?" Thor asks and Loki throws a punch to his jaw, making Thor stumble back and frown as he grabs his jaw.

"Of course I do! What is wrong with you all, I am in love with her you idiotic wastes of oxygen!" Loki yells, fuming as he earns grins from everyone around him. Then all his anger goes away as he falls into a depressed state, he puts his face in his hands and mumbles the words that he doesn't know the extent of the answer.

"What have I done."

Meanwhile....

Epin teleported to the one place she felt she needed to go. Odin's throne room. She had seen him leave the banquet early and she could only assume he would be in the throne room. She needed to speak to Odin and it was very urgent in her eyes. She landed just outside of the throne room, and pushed the big doors open as hard as she could to be greeted by a quiet room with a lone Odin at the end, sitting on a gold throne. She strut to the end of the long hall and Odin watched her with a close eye and gave her an expectant look. He could sense her urgency and did not wish to waste anymore time for her matter.

"Why did you never show Loki love?" Epin asks desperately.

"I have no idea what you are insinuating." Odin scoffs and furrows his eyebrows, unsure of why she would asks a king such questions about his son.

"You know exactly what I am talking about!" Epin yells making Odin stand from his throne, surprised by the conviction and confidence that dripped from Epin at her current state. He is unsure as to what caused Epin to come to him to ask such questions but he knew that Epin was in no mood for games.

"That is no way to speak to a king." Odin calmly tries to reestablish dominance, he had never let an outsider speak to him so lowly before.

Epin darkly chuckles before responding. "I could not give less of a shit about your royal status. You should have cared for that boy. Loved him like your own. Say what you will about your parenting but you never treated Thor and Loki like equals. He deserves so much better."

"Watch your tongue!" Odin loudly warns, feeling like Epin was going to push further buttons.

"I am not your subject! All Loki ever wanted from you was your acceptance and approval. You couldn't even give him that. Now he claims he is incapable of love, I fear this was all your fault whether you admit it or not." Epin slowly states. She can feel herself start to break.

"I believe this anger comes from Loki not reciprocating his feelings." Odin states calmly, putting the pieces together of why Epin was talking with him. What he couldn't understand is what Loki had done considering it was obvious even to himself that his son was infatuated with Epin.

At this realization, Epin took a deep breath and responded very quietly so only Odin could hear her at their close proximity. "It pains me to say that you are right, but I do hope that you someday look at that man and for once see him as your son. Truly. I am sorry for being outspoken. I know you disapprove of anyone who isn't afraid to raise their voice at you but I really had to let you know that you really let Loki down. Again I am sorry, but he deserves the world, because I know that not once in his life has he felt loved or appreciated or accepted and that is no way to live." By the time she finished speaking she had tears in her eyes but she had more to say.

"Lady Epin-" Odin says calmly before being cut off.

"Please, no need to scold me. I already know I have been disrespectful and irrational in this visit but I am currently not in a great headspace. Just know that I wholeheartedly believe Loki deserves everything he ever wanted. He deserves to be happy and I wish for you to see that too. When I leave Asgard, please try to make him happy. Have a nice day, Allfather." Epin practically whispers and when she receives a faint nod from Odin she feels a tear roll down her cheek as she teleports to the special place that Loki had shown her only a little while ago.