Hidden Truths

Understanding

Yemoja POV

The car ride was completely silent as we drove to whatever store he was taking us to.

I don't understand why he is giving me the silent treatment, I didn't do anything wrong.

"What is your problem?" I asked turning from the window to look at him.

"I don't have one."

I rolled my eyes at his blatant lie. He was usually upfront with his feelings and it is annoying me that he is not being now.

"Listen I don't have time for the games." I said turning back forward in my seat.

He scoffed at me causing my head to snap back to him.

"That is ironic of you to say considering you are the one playing games." He told me not taking his eyes off the road.

I figured this was still because of Jay.

"Listen I am interested in you that is true, but as I told you before we are not together. Me and Jay didn't even do anything but flirt, and if I was to have sex with her it still wouldn't be a problem because we are not together. Levi we haven't even gone on a date yet." I just didn't understand men sometimes.

" You are right. You are entitled to go out with whoever you like. I am not mad about you flirting with her to be honest, as you said we aren't together. I'm upset because I expected you to want the same thing I did. If I am interested in one person my mind doesn't even go to another in that way. Like I said though, it was my mistake thinking you felt or thought the same way I did ." He explained.

"I get where you're coming from, but I am not the type to be with just one person. Actually all of my previous relationships have been open ones and they work best for me."

"How do you know they work best if you never been in a monogamous relationship? " he asked me and I had to think about his questions.

The more I thought about it the more I realized that I had no idea. I never been in a relationship where we are exclusive to each other. My first boyfriend only did open relationships, even though he only wanted to be emotionally connected to me he still wanted to explore sexually outside our relationship. At first I hated the idea but at the time I was willing to do anything for him. It was a toxic relationship but it opened me up to the idea and I am grateful for that. They have been amazing to experience.

" I guess I don't, but it has worked out for me."

"Obviously not if you aren't with those people anymore." 

I mean he isn't completely wrong but, he didn't have to call me out like that.

"The reason why I am no longer with my previous partners is because we were not as compatible as we thought. People evolve and get on different levels, the connection dies down after a while. None of my relationships ended badly they were all mutual. The one thing that is absolutely needed for that type of relationship is honesty, especially when it comes to lost feelings." I explained to him because open relationships where more than what people painted them to be.

"Also it is not just you claiming someone while fucking a whole bunch of people. It's being in a relationship that you are allowed to be free and experience the things you want, that may be fucking another person. We trust each other enough to know even though I am fucking this person you are the person I will come to at the end of the day."

He didn't say anything else and I didn't have nothing to say either. I just hoped he understood where I was coming from.

I want a relationship with him. I like him and feel a connection with him.