The Unwanted Uzumaki

Words of the Past

Authors notes: To all who are reading this, there will be mentions of past rape within the chapter. To anyone who has every had this happen to them, I am sorry that people were so cruel in doing that to you! 

Loneliness seared through Hikaru as he spent another birthday without his brother surrounding him and now that his parent's had plans for the room that used to house Naruto; Hikaru was having to say goodbye to another piece of his brother.

Even though Hikaru wasn't able to fight his parent's on this issue, they gave in to his demands of being the one to empty out the room which is what Hikaru was currently doing while the rest of his family were outside celebrating the birth of their children. 

With each passing second, Hikaru destroyed a piece of the memory of this room. The mattress that Naruto used to lay on now thrown in the middle of the hallway, the dresser that used to house the clothing that used to lay upon his body was doing the same. Every piece that Hikaru pulled from the room caused him agony and as he was readying to get rid of the last piece of furniture that was within the room, Hikaru heard something hit the ground.

Hearing the noise, Hikaru decided that he would delay the inevitable reality that this room would no longer be the one that housed his younger brother. Making his way over to where he heard the noise, Hikaru noticed that a journal was on the floor. "He must have forgotten that he left this here..." Hikaru muttered to himself as he went to collect the journal. 

Wanting to keep hold of anything that reminded him of Naruto, Hikaru decided to take the journal to his own room where he could read what was within it. Not even bothering to think twice on the mess that he had left within the hallway, Hikaru quickly made his way to his room. 

Once there, Hikaru was inside of it before a clock would have been able to have a second pass on it's face. Now that he was inside a safe place, Hikaru made his way over to his paid and sat upon it. Once done, he held the book for a moment like it was a holy tomb and when he was ready; opened it up to see what lay within.

Most of the pages that were contained in the front of the journal were of no real significance besides for the fact that they allowed Hikaru to see Naruto's writing once again. When Hikaru reached the middle of the journal he was surprised to see that the page he was on was the last one that Naruto had written in. "That is weird...Naruto would never just leave a journal half filled." Hikaru contemplated as he looked at the day that the journal entry was written. "Naruto wrote this two months before he left." Hikaru concluded as he began to read what was written on the page.

It hurts! I don't understand why he would do that to me. Uncle told me he was taking me to train so even though I won't have access to chakra that I could still be a powerful taijutsu user. Though what happened wasn't anything like the training that I have mother and father do with my siblings. 

I just don't understand why he would jam himself into me. He is supposed to be my family and I was screaming for him to stop! Why wouldn't he stop? He just kept slamming into me and even when the blood started to seep out of where he ripped me, Uncle just kept continuing...

Hikaru had to pull his eyes away from the journal as the words he was reading described an event that he never would have thought possible. "Naruto...I am so sorry. Why didn't I understand what had happened to you...even when you started to pull away at the touch of every male; why couldn't I just see what you had been through." Hikaru cried as he moved his eyes back to the page to continue where he had left off.

...when mother saw my wounds later that night, she seemed worried for a moment but when I told her what Uncle did too me she became enraged. She slapped me in the face and ran to get father who drug me through the house kicking and screaming. When father finally stopped dragging me, he made me stand in front of Uncle and even though I was still naked, father forced me down on my knees to apologize. 

Would someone please just tell me why Uncle Jiraiya would do that too me?

This was where the journal entry cut off and when Hikaru learned that Uncle Jiraiya had violated Naruto in such a way, he wished for nothing more than to go outside to the celebration and butcher the white-haired devil where he stood.

"I am sorry Naruto...I am sorry that I couldn't protect you." Hikaru whispered as the feelings in his body became a mix of rage and sorrow.

*

"Are you sure that we should be doing this? Couldn't I get hurt?" Ryu inquired as he stared nervously at the blond Mage before him.

Naruto never would have thought that someone descended from a royal family could become so easily nervous though since he knew first hand how nerve wracking what they were about to do was, Naruto decided that a less teasing approach would be best. "There is a possibly that you could get hurt but as long as we are careful, you should feel great by the time its over." Naruto replied as he waited to hear consent for the suggestion that he had made.

From the words that came stumbling from Ryu's mouth, Naruto knew that the older boy was having difficulty overcoming his nerves. "But...but..." 

This was all that Naruto allowed to fall out before he held up a hand to stop Ryu. "Listen Ryu. You were the one who told me months ago that you were interested in learning magic and if you want to do this then you will have to bind with a Celestial Spirit. I spent weeks finding one that I thought would be suitable for you and if you aren't willing to bind with it then I guess I should." Naruto explained as he readied himself to do just that. 

The moment that Naruto's hand touched the door, Ryu stopped him. "Okay Naruto. I will do it. I just got scared when you said that I would have to go inside the room alone since I don't have any magic to defend myself." Ryu replied.

Though Naruto understood this, he knew that Ryu needed to overcome his fear if he was ever going to become a Mage that was worthy of the title. "I know Ryu. I didn't have any magic when I first met Sanos either, I just used the advantage of my past to overcome the test that he gave me and you can do the same." Naruto spoke out hoping that the confidence he had in the other boy would be able to pass to Ryu through his words.

Thankfully, that was all the push that Ryu needed to take the first steps towards becoming a Mage. With everything now said between them, Ryu took Naruto's place at the door and stepped inside. The last thing Naruto heard before the door closed was the sound of wind flashing by.