dear diary

I can do it

(Janus pov)
"Baby" I hear my boyfriend softly say as he strokes my cheek.
"Mmh"
"I need to go downstairs and tell the guys something, stay here okay? I'll be back in a minute"
I feel the pain in the back of my head again grabbing my attention, "Kay" is the only thing I can get out as I'm desperately trying to not grab my head in pain and start crying.

He walks out and closes the door.
That's when the pain gets worse, I can feel it even more and I grasp my head tears streaming down my face. It feels like I'm gonna throw up because of the pain but I hold still.
After maybe a minute I decide to stand up and get out of the room.
I'm strong enough to do this
I hold myself up with help from the wall as I enter the room into the corridor.

I've walked down these stairs a million times,
one more time is nothing.
Ugh I'm gonna rip that boy in parts when I get back to school.

One step.
Good.
Another step.
Great.
Three more steps.
Okay this is easy.
Okay half the stairs left.
Come on

When I get down to the bottom on the stairs I can hear talking in the kitchen.
Okay. I did that.
I can keep going.

"Well that's great" I hear Patton giggle from the kitchen. It seems like everyone is there.
The pain keeps stinging and with every step towards the kitchen it seems to get worse.
Ugh come on just keep walking.
I put my hand on the wall as I walk into the kitchen.
"Janus I told you to stay in our room"
A stressed out Remus says as he
walks towards me.
"I'm okay" I say my words slurring together.
I couldn't focus on anything other than the pain in the back of my head.

I feel someones hands on my shoulder as they slowly push me to the wall and slide me down.

In the moment of such pain, remembering where I got it from, I push my hands out as fast as possible towards whoever was trying to push me into the wall again.

The person steps back and I can hear how they almost lose balance.
"Baby it's just me" I hear them saying as they walk towards me again.
"D-dont touch me" is all I can say before the pain gets even worse.
I feel everything going black as I once again fall to the ground leaning to a wall.

"LOGAN WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO" I hear Remus screaming as he grabs me and holds me tight. "Just get him on the couch, Roman get pain killers" Logan says with panic in his voice as Remus picks me up.

"I'm sorry" I say as I look up on a crying Remus holding me tight in his arms.
"I-its okay" he says still crying holding me tighter.
"You know what" I say my words slurring together as the pain is beating through
my entire body.
"What?" He says wiping his tears.
"I love you" I say softly stroking his warm and wet cheek.
"I love you too baby" he smiles and kisses my forehead.
"I dont think I can go to school tomorrow" I say only half joking.
"Nome of us will, classes are canceled because of a water leak or something"
He says pushing some hair out my face.
"Perfect" I giggle and close my eyes again.

~time skip to like 5 days later~
(They still dont have school)

(Virgil pov)
"Virgil are you in here?" I hear Patton saying as hes knocking on Roman's door.
"Yeah I am" I say as i walk up to the door and open it, "so- where is Roman?" He asks looking into the room.
"He's with Logan I think" I say thinking about it realizing I actually didnt know.
"I was looking for Logan but I can't find him" Patton says with worry in his voice.
"Wanna go searching?" I ask as I look into his eyes.
"Yeah!' He says smiling as he grabs my hand and we leave mine and Roman's room.

We walk down the stairs and into the living seeing Janus sitting on the couch, Janus' head had gotten better and everything was normal now.
Except for the fact that Remus wasnt there.
They were usually inseparable.
"Where Remus?" Patton asks.
"I actually dont know, where's Logan and Roman?" He asks back looking at us.

Me and Roman were living together in Roman's "old" room. Patton and Logan lived in Pattons old room and Janus and Remus had moved in into Logans, we were now three couples living in the same flat, and it did work very good.

*three different phones ringing*
"Its Remus" Janus says in a confused tone
"Logan is calling me" Patton says looking up from his phone
"Yeah its Roman" I say as I look at them both.
"Hello baby?" Janus says being the first to say anything.
"Are you with Patton and Virgil" we can hear Remus say.
"Yes" Janus answers looking at us confused.
The calling stops in mine and Pattons phones as Remus speaks again "could you put on speaker Jan?"
"Mhm" Janus says as he does.
Me and Patton sit down on the couch next to him to hear better.

"We need you all to-" Remus starts.
"We?" Patton asks cutting him off.
"Me, Roman and Logan, need you all to dress up as fancy as you can and be ready at the door at 6"
He simply says
"Why?" Janus asks him.
"I'll see you then" Remus says and hangs up.
"Better not question them" Janus says in defeat as he stands up.

"We've got 20 min"