Christmas In California

Day: 6 "Disappointment."

Faith:

I hate him.

I hate him with all my heart.

You might be confused about what happen, I'll tell you. Ryker is a the biggest asshole ever.

Yesterday, we were supposed to meet up and talk to each other right? Remember that? Yeah ok.

Yesterday morning, I got all ready and excited thinking I will actually talk to him and reunite with him. So I got up in the morning, took a shower with cold water since the hot water ran out and I had no time to wait for it to work again.

I actually made effort and did my hair good. I was so excited that I didn't even eat breakfast just to meet him thinking I was going to get my best friend back.

It was really cold as well but I didn't bother worrying about it as for then it was the last thing I had to be concerned about.

I got to the park and sat on the bench waiting for him.

I waited for 6 fucking hours.

As every minute passed by, my hunger got worst and it was getting even colder. Yes, I sat there all by myself waiting for that jerk.

He never showed up. Didn't even have the concern to at least say, I don't want to talk to you but no. He had to make me suffer.

After I realised, I had been purposely hung up, I went home since Cassie kept calling me and was worrying about me.

When I got home, I saw him at his house porch chilling with Owen. He even looked at me and ignored. I.hate. him.

Currently, I am in bed, with a running and red nose, watching Christmas movies. As you can guess already, I am sick and there's nothing more I hate than being sick. I had a pile of used tissues on my left and a box of tissues in my right.

Cassie and Lucy had went out to a club, which I was suppose to go as well but I am too sick. However I feel more grateful that I didn't go because Cassie texted me saying that Ryker and Owen were also there.

Luck is on my side right now. I would have bashed out on him if I had seen him. Tired and bored, I turn the TV off and wrap a blanket around myself and go downstairs.

While half way down the stairs, I hear familiar voice making me halt in my steps.

"No need to thank us.. It's just a small gift. " The lady, whom I suppose is my mother stands there smiling at Amy.

"Yes yes, please take it. " Another male voice. My father.

I gain back my senses and try to get out of their sight but it's too late.

"Wait, who is that? " My mother asks. My back is turned to them so luckily, they can't see me.

"Oh she is just a guest. " Amy hastily says.

"Oh, she has no manners. Doesn't even greet the elderly. My Faith always used to greet elders even if she didn't like them. " And my heart stops.

Did my father, really just said that? I smile and am about to turn around and hug him when I hear my mother's voice.

"Jordan! How many times have I told you. Never to take the name of her. She is nobody but a huge disappointment to us and our family. She doesn't exist anymore. "

And my heart breaks.

Unable to hide my tears which were once of happiness, did an uno reverse and were now tears of hurt and pain.

Am I really that bad?

I don't hear what Amy or my father replies as I'm quick to lock myself in the room.

I climb back into my bed and the turn Christmas movie back on.

However, my mother's words keep repeating itself in my head.

Disappointment.

She doesn't exist.

She has never been proud of me, or showed me off. I was more of a little tool that she used when she needed.

She never showed me any sort of love or affection. We were never that close, but I still respected and loved her.. Since she was my mother.

My dad however, he was barely home.. Always working or on business trips. Hell, I think he was cheating on mom. We would have had really good relationship if he actually stayed around me.

I hear a knock on my door and I straighten up.

"Hey honey, are you alri-" Amy comes in.

"Yeah of course. Why wont I be except the cold? " I fake laugh.

"Oh I don't know, maybe you heard what your mother said. In which case, did you? "She asks concerned. Yes yes I did.

"Huh? What are you talking about? Was I supposed to hear something? " I ask with fake obliviousness.

"Oh nothing, then I guess. Have a good night. " She kisses my cheek and goes out of my room closing the door.

"you too. " I say after her.

After she left, I turn my attention back to the movie, shutting my brain off.

I couldn't sleep the entire night, thinking of my mother's words.

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I wrote this chapter freaking two times. BUT GUESS WHAT?

wattpad keeps deleting them. Ugh. The original version actually had them talk it out and be friends but I'm not in mood to write a lovey dovey thing. Yes okay bye.

Thanks for reading! :)

Merry chrimus 🎄